Category : Diary/Journal

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As the days went on ... My life was starting to turn better. I got my permit and had the best boyfriend in the world you can say .but the always did say dont tell your bussines to anyone.  But they always did say dont vent to anyone and i did and that person was my sister . she was 13 and boy wasn't she a mommy girl.  Everything my mom wanted she did for my mother and of course always rat on me.   But one day i decided to talk about my feelings and talk to my sister about jake , biggest mistake in my life.  Jake was a wonderful guy.  The only problem he smoked weed.  And coming from a Hispanic family that doesn't cut it.  I understand.  You aint supposed to take of a guy that the guy should always take care of you. In my eyes .you she always depend on yourself lie a real human.  Jake wasn't tryna depend on me because he works but my parents see that he has no car or house he's 20 working at walmart.  He just turned 20 last month. We got our whole life ahead of us. He can still get his stuff.  But always said my mom is jealous or me because she doesn't want me to make her mistakes and that she's not happy with my dad . to be honest. My parents aint happy but i am. Do you believe in love ? Cause i do.  I really do.   It sucks everyday living in hell when your an adult buy always need to stay inside because your parents keep you trap and alot of you probably well bitch get the fuck out the house or runway. I love my family but if i chose jake over family they would turn thier backs on me.  I don't have the greatest family that supports me. And no this aint a lie this is real life. I sit on online and i write about my life so someone knows theres real people out here whos afraid live out here in the real world.  So what so i really do ? Leave with jake and start a new life and say fuck my family ??because if you were in my shoes you would understand.  All i wanna be is loved and all i wanna do is die.  But life is not great im a high school drop out ...who works at burger king fliping burgers.  

To be continue.....