Category : Poems

Sub Category : N/A

My tears fall on to a floor full of death and pleading agony. The floor begs to release the trapped fears and hate of a whole life that I have given. But I just stare blurry eyed as more tears stain the floor. I fall to the ground pleading to God to save me and forgive me but another wave of misery hits me and I'm back in my past. A past full of abuse, rape, and torment. I whimper silently as to make sure no one hears my screams that I wish so badly to let out. I scamper crawling across the floor trying to find any way out of this mess. I crawl near to a blade as it shines to a perfect point. I laugh because I'm afraid but also because i feel the freedom nearing. My scarred wrists look as though they are begging and I reach closer to the freedom I deserve. Only until I feel those hands on my shoulders and that voice of encouragement. 

"If you give up now what will your family think? What are you gaining? I thought you were going to keep fighting for your father's sake?"

I glare at the wall in front of me afraid to face the person behind me and to take a chance at darkness. My hands shake fighting to stop myself but oh so desperate to see the other side. I burst out in tears once more now feeling the release of anger, fear, disgust, hurt, and hatred pour out in agonizing screams and heart wretched bellows. As I end my charade of emotional trauma....

I start all over. A never ending cycle of torment. A life of the same events..as the tears fall onto the stained tiles.......