Category : Diary/Journal

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I found an enemy who's inside me.  People call it anger.  You know,  it's the main reason why we are left alone.  People don't like the ones who get angry for simple reasons.  But,  does they know why is he/she getting angry this much? 

Sadness can turn into anger. 
Tensions can turn into anger. 
Loneliness can turn into anger. 
These three things I learned. 

My 'enemy' created so much problems for me.  It changes me into another person whom I can't even control.  My sadness turns into anger and the anger turns me into a lonely person.  I can't control it.  It controls me.  There are many people who hate me for this behavior of mine.  And there are some,  who knows me and stay with me. 
They always say,  "Control your anger".  I can't.  Sometimes when I get angry, I break something which results into me getting hurt.  They ask,  "why are you doing this" and my answer to this question is "I don't know ".

When I try to control my anger,  it suddenly turns into tears.  And its really embarrassing to cry in front of others.  
I'm trying to fight against my 'enemy'. Its really a hard fight,  but I need to save me from myself.