Category : Diary/Journal

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At some point we get stuck at a question,  "what now? "
I'm at that situation now.  What should I do? 
My life has more failures than victories. And now, I have failed again.  Failed in love.  
He said he loves someone. I didn't believe it at first.  He may be lying to make me stop loving him.  I asked his friend.  He said what I've heard was true.  
My heart says,  "No,  he's lying. "
My mind says, "He's telling the truth. "
What I felt was an argument between my heart and my mind.  Whom should I hear?  To My heart,  or my mind.  
I searched her name on facebook.  But couldn't find such a name with him as a mutual friend.  I felt relaxed,  but why was he lying to me.  Or maybe not,  maybe he loves someone.  
It hurts.  It really hurts.  I felt my heart is tired of beating,  I can't breathe.  I felt so tired, that I can't even stand straight.  And sleep?  It always plays games with me.  I felt tired and alone. 
I was the same before I met him.  But all that changed after he came.  And now,  I'm back to what I was.
 Again my mind says," just move on, he is a closed chapter in your life. "
And my heart says,  " You love him,  don't you?  One day he will realize that,  and he will come back.  "