Category : Stories

Sub Category : YoungAdult

( hi its the auther today i was looking at someone's post abd it was nice it is a story about how he is different its called "blue crystal" i think? Anyways i haven't talked about my condition in any of my other stories so i guess thats what this is.) 

               A Broken Heart Of Gold

Hello im melanie and im different then most girls, i cant act like im normal, or pretend to be happy, because to be honest im not. I have (ASD) or Atrial Septal Defect. Asd is as heart condition, the first thing I hate about it is the name "defect" it makes you sound like you we're a mistake something that shouldn't excist and if you have a bad vocabulary the name basically means that there's something wrong with your heart. I would have been fine with it if the doctors would have noticed it when I was born that way my parents would have raised me to feel normal or they would have pretended not to know anything and not tell me, bit no that's not what happened I had to go see about 3 heart professionals and they couldnt see what was wrong with me even after losing my memory and fainting. Then the day right after my 9th birthday again I fainted and lost my memory but that was different I was home alone that night my mom and little brother went to my nabors house for diner but I had homework so I staid and home. I was unconsiouse  on the cold floor for about 1-2 hours before my mom came home and called 9-1-1.we drove to the best hospital there was around and then i woke up when my mom was telling the nurse what happened at that time I threw up 3 times then I got a room, threw up 2 times and then they told us that I could have a heart condition or a brain misfunction. I was In a hospital for a week unable to move with my head hurting, and cabels literally pasted on to my head. After a week they told me I had asd. That's how it happened. After that I couldn't help but feel left out I never told anyone but eventually word leaked about me. Everyone knew what I had people that hated me for unknown reasons started hugging me and wanting to sit next to me. Me and my 2 besties we're usually the last to sit down and there was barely any space for us so we sat in a mother table at the edge but then suddenly everyone squished to one side of the table when we got there, I felt left out unlike my besties who loved being able to sit with everyone else so sins that day I almost always spent my lunch starving in the bathroom hoping no one would notice, as a year went by one of my besties got switched to another class and just decided not to be my friend anymore, I was cool with that, so it's just me and my other friend we aren't as close anymore though I guess I just realized that all the names they called me we're real "nerd!","tomboy! ","anti-social!" I can go on and on but there true I don't like going to social events or any events I try to stay away from attention and well people I guess, I started hanging out with boys more often and somehow it was better I guess it was because boys don't really care about personal stuff like my conversations with a girl would be like
 Girl:OMG MELANIE I've been looking everywhere fore you did you here about the new couple? 

Me:um no?? 

Girl:well obviously they broke up last night! 

Me:what? 

Girl:you know the girl texted me that she broke up with him through text because he was so not in her league

Me:.......o look at he time got a go... Um.. Read something?? 

Girl:k by. 

A conversation with a boy and me would me like, ( boys call me m for short. ) 

Boy:hey m sup

Me:hey what you doing 

Boy:playing video games  

Me:cool what game maybe I'll join 

See what I mean totally different, but the more I hanged out with guys the more my girl friends got jealous and mad, so I barely had any friends that we're girls because they all sort of got upset with me. So me a loner starting middle school in a private school, it is not fun being smart sure getting perfect scores in the math fsa is OK bit getting perfect scores in every test is not all advanced classes are not fun I mean I started school like 2-3 weeks ago and I'm almost at the end of my math book!!! 
And it's not the same I don't know anyone and I'm still a nerdy,loner and it's just gets worst my teachers don't know my condition so they don't know what to do, you see if I spend more then few hours without drinking water I have a heart attack. If a normal person drinks 8 glasses of water a day I need to drink at least like 20 glasses of water a day. Besides I also have a fobia I have claustrophobia, just this summer I fainted 4-6 times at the least. 
These days the only thing that make me truly happy is reading books like the other day I read "witch and wizard:the fire" by my all time favorite auther James Patterson I have been reading all the books in the series and I'm missing 2 books that should be arriving because I ordered then online,  and writing like j am right now, and I guess music makes me happy as well but that's it I'm the same as dead I guess I understand I'm not normal when my parents feel my heart beat they freak out because it's always faster then a normal persons heart it hurts deep inside, I try to hide it but I feel dead and I'm sure that this condition will be the end of me. But until then I'll keep writing and reading and hearing music and  watching anime which makes me smile and laugh a whole lot as well!! 

( so that's my story, plz follow, rate stars,share, and comment any thoughts, ideas,or suggestions. )

I forgot to mention that I never did get my memory back about that day but I slowly started to remember other things like my friends and family but nothing about that day besides being home alone doing my homework the day after my birthday.