Category : Poems

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Maybe

Maybe I'm not good enough for other people, maybe I'm just trying too hard to get people to notice me that I just don't make an impact in them, maybe I should just leave everyone else alone. For some time, I could bear pain without flinching because my mind was so busy in doing things that it was never possible to think about you, but also sometimes I felt my heart in such dispear, I would have loved to disappear with my thoughts of you. I opened my eyes now, and i can see how oblivion feels like, to be nothing more than a filler episode in your life, just a shadow of what I once was, even for myself. This pain, sorrow and frustation, made my conscience darker than it was, made me think about letting it go, screaming, or even crying hard enough just to explode in a way. But it wasn't like that, even if I wanted to, I just couldn't stop being silly and stop feeling the things I once felt, watching the good in you, always being there doing as much as i could and sometimes even more, just to see you happy, just to watch your smile again, bearing constantly my pain and thoughts just to make you feel you had someone that cared about you, but it didn't work. In fact, the funmy thing was that I even wasn't able to make an impact upon you, I was a zero to the left, a distant memory in a forgetting mind, and a vivid one in mine. All this dissapointment made me think, why to love, if it hurts that much? But i realized, loving is living, and living is loving so it can't be stopped in some sort of way. I've never been that person who wishes bad things to his beolved ones, or once beloved, and that will never change. I just wanted to clear my mind, for a couple of minutes, and make sure you're alright, and to hope and make sure your future days are as bright as your eyes and as sweet as your voice.

Maybe I'm just not good enough...

For you