Category : Diary/Journal

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There I go again; retreating to that world I keep a lock on.

That one world no one will ever see, trust me you do not want to pay this fee.
I smile and pretend that I’m okay when I am in there. 
Putting up an optimistic persona for the audience crowded with people who truly
care. Little do they know that the surface is cracking and they will ask in despair..

“What’s wrong?” 

I’ll give you a glimpse; let’s take a step into my mind.
As we enter, I must remember before we move along,
So to those who believe, don’t forget about your praying..
Have you ever sat there and looked in a mirror and looked directly at yourself?
What do you see? 
I see all of my demons. Every single one trying to get out but I do all I can
to make sure they remain locked up in their cells. They mustn’t leave; if they
do darkness will consume the world completely. Words are my power, paper is my shield and my pen is my
sword. 
Armored up, deflecting those who are sour and the word play will annihilate
those  with my razorblade tongue but you
all know ThoseMeaningfulWords works so analytically, at times so viciously. Silly boy I am, fighting off these demons when they were
created in the darkness within me and it is only I who should be there to stand
and fight, with all my might.
It seems never ending. 
All day and every night. 
I have been so naïve; I let these demons conquer me. 
I’m cuffed, locked away in that world I locked everything away in. How could
this be? 
Someone help me, this is something I couldn’t do alone. 
I was unlocking this world because I thought I could handle it since I have
grown.
I was not prepared, these repressed memoires flood my mind. 
What have I got myself into..? I knew the time would come inevitably. 
I knew my problems would come around eventually…

TO BE CONTINUED…
Signed,
            ThoseMeaningfulWords. VH.