Category : Poems

Sub Category : N/A

Im sorry 
If I'm not enough
Life has really been tough
Hiding my pain with every smile 
Worst thing i could do
Is hide them in a file
With every word sharp like knife
I wished it was real life

Yearned in making you proud
Felt like a failer in every month
Day by day it got worse 
For i could never bê the perfect girl
Or daugther infact
In luck to say I got the best person
Sadly I'm not the greatest.

I tried too much that i just quit
I was never Proud of myself
How could i make you Proud of me
I was an Infant with big dreams
And life just hit her like a tide
Not knowing where to hide

Growing up i was distant 
Whenever i said something
Or did anything it was a big thing
I had a alot to say
The only thing i could do is keep quiet
For you cant speak back to your elders

I cant open up
Cause every wórd i say
is something people use against 
And every wórd they would utter 
Would be a bigger knife than the one you used
Everyone left 
So i walk away before i love too much

Living to someone's expectations
And building the future they wanted
Was never on my list
Yet people still control
I wish i could have a voice of mine
I grew up without one
So how could i

Thought I was a burden
A thing that sent your worlds crambling down
A light never meant to be bright
I was left all alone
Even when you were next to me
Quit even with things are happening around me

I try to be who I truly am
Around you of course
Its not hard they say
Try it with my mentality
Be me for a day
Feel my emotions
Be in my shoes
For once you'll be able to understand
I wish you'd understand
I'd wish if anyone did

But its too late
A baby acts like how their treated
Life just makes it worse 
Even with small little things
Its my fault 
They would say" you picture your future"
But they shape it
And for them its specific
While mine is just perfect.

Am I wrong for wanting to run away
Die instead
Or just have my head
Even if I die I was already dead
Don't feel pity
It won't save me

You would choose right or wrong
And never a talk at all
Be straight with your words 
Never specific
It would be terrific
Sharp eyes and Scared I'd be
So if you asking why I don't trust
It started with you
It started with everyone
That made me a fool.