Category : Poems

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Regrets
As I believed I knew, 
Time wasn't on our side.
Fighting to keep something I felt, I would never be able to make mines.
Pictures of me and you cross my mind.
Acquainted with your face.
Remembering the way my heart felt, holding tight to grab every second I was able to keep you right there.
Close,
Near,
No space in between.
Now I'm here questioning, was what I felt to be right, worth my dream?
Was it worth those created lies I lead you to believe?
Is it worth this sickness that I feel, caused from an intent to push you away?
From this, I doubt we'll heal.
I'm running from this truth.
Loving you, I just can't refuse.
Scared of that thing called love.
Losing my breath when someone spoke you up.
Moving my eyes, when your eyes caught mine.
I love you,
More than I think you can give.
I need you,
More than you can feel.
(We)
This is beyond what I expected.
Together,
I recall we were mending.
Intended to be a sensation.
I fell in love with you as my savior.
I was dark, but you always seemed brighter.
Your options were better.
Giving me light, 
no longer blind.
With you, I was finally able to see.
What you did, 
To,
for me,
The weakness I felt within,
Having you next to me,
With me.
The feelings that were rapidly growing.
Pretending that with you, I was fighting.
Yet, I was fighting your control,
That losing whirl that I couldn't escape.
Physical,
Emotional,
Feelings,
Me, this previous untouchable person, couldn't tame.
Asking you questions you would refuse to answer.
Hoping to manipulate for an honest answer.
An answer as to why when you touched me I became stiff.
An answer as to why when I kissed you, I froze; bitting my trembling lip, praying it would become still.
As to why when you spoke, all I felt was this calming vibe.
Or as to why when I stared, you were able to see this innocent love,
This want I have for you Soo much.
Why you never accepted me as Enough.
Pushing me to be and see more,
Only influenced me.
Making it impossible to separate you from my veins.
As if you were the blood I needed to keep sane.
This love is deeper than you,
Deeper than me,
Deeper than a common loyalty.
I asked can I have you.
I was really asking if I could trust to give you my all.
All of me,
All my bad,
All my good,
All my hardships,
For you to take more than you possibly could..
Live your life seeing this face,
Could you see yourself creating a spring, out of a dragged out storm of endless rain.
But, I ran.
Although in shame, I know it was in my best interest to stay,
Shut up,
Embrace,
Feel sick for a miraculous change.
Smile with joy, seeing an image of us successfully completing something.
I should have been patient,
Patiently waiting to hear your knocks.
Your text or calls, that was sounds proof of you caring so much. 
Now, I've messed up.
Believing, letting you go now wouldn't hurt  or impact me so much.
After my fire,
You'd never believe these words,
Believe in us.
I guess some things aren't needed to be spoken.
I guess it's ok to allow time to heal what is broken.
I've had to learn the hard way, 
Knowing now, I'll still have to see my love that I could never tame.

- M'Amoura