Category : Diary/Journal

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I write and I write, but it does not take the pain away.
The pain of missing you too much, loving you too much.
The pain of not understanding why.
Why did I have to fall in love with you?
The longing to look into your eyes takes me to places where I can only see your face on a screen.
I tried so hard to find closure, but there is no closure for me.
There never will be.
I try hard to be there with him when we make love, but my mind has a way of its own. Straying back to you, like my deceiving heart.
He was right in saying that in pusing me away when you did, God protected me from getting hurt in the worst way.
I try hard to put you out of my mind, but I always find myself coming back here.
I have that fear too, knowing that I would have ended up like all the rest of them after me.
After you're done with me, I will be nothing.
My life would be destroyed.
My heart would not have survived, loving you still this much.
I am afraid to be anywhere near you now. 
I don't think I will be strong enough to resist you. 
I know what your kiss alone did to me and I was only sixteen then. 
I should not feel this way about you. 
All I remember is the way you held me. The way you talked to me.
All I know is the way you once loved me.
I am going to keep on missing you forever.

Silent Angel