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Memories will come maybe not in orlder
I ranabout when covid was starting n I found alot of trauma in there I had a gaslighter caught red handed. 10 thousand blew up my car robbed me 5btimes n my therapy was excited I pank up the next day and was happier I want sleeping my car. There's a lot of it but now I'm gett getting to who I think is a narcissist let me at my lowest and he was at his love I fought for him for everything he never bought me a pair of pants shorts so anything he's a bunch of b******* just says what you want to hear he ditched me downtown before and a half hours had to call my friend ride then he ditched me four times after that where I had to walk a mile in my Ms and I punched him in the face and I know where today not even fighting he ditched me again and I told him that's traumatizing to me I want you to tease I want your wallet you don't just do that to somebody's daughter one day loves me next day he's all alone and there's so much more he did he lied about going to the bar of 24/7 for years he lied about being married and having a kid having seven you lied about his own age it's always a line and he doesn't stick through anything and he don't want me to be any better he thinks my friend will take care of me for 2 days ago he said I could never sleep wake up without you I love you bye come on I guess he's jealous way too fast I guess I should lose weight and tone up and be the best I can be I'm only 38 I don't got that many years on me and the fact that he gets me again just made me cold inside it could possibly do that to me I hope we're together long enough so I can get him a face with his own medicine we'll see we'll see we only reason he's trying to quit s*** is because of the bar three and some years I got less than when I was home well he's a selfish that's what he wants to do when he wants to do it how could I ever love someone that lies and repeatedly does it he needs to get in off the f*** out_. . . And in 3 years-. . I was about 20 and now I'm about 77 and when I tried to lose weighe but then he says it gonna stay with me he don't want to me to do make or close or lose weight weelll screw it I'm doing it...oh n he's never wrong flips it on you. Thinks his better n can do wat they want h even ditching ur girl.  Pay back a bitch