
Sandel Brown
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I lived a life of sorrow-Since I was a little boy;Getting into trouble-It was what brought me joy;Drinking at age nine-Smoking by ten;Broke into my first car-Right about then;Hiding from the cops-Never going home;Mama was my example-Of how to be a man;Hung with my friends-Gang of eight or ten;Some ended up in jail-Others found the coroner's bin;I was arrested by the time I was twelve-Juvy hall for two months;Broke in and stole a diamond ring-From old man Pershall that night;Had me on video-What was I to do;Told them all I'd do it again-Just to see if I could;Urchin by reputation-Sandel Brown by name;Come to my place-And I'll show you how we play this game;Just to survive-Is never enough;Streets are so damn tough-Will we ever get out alive;Murdered my first man-Right at fifteen;Just young enough-They didn't get my scene;Sent me to state-For five to fifteen years;Met up with a nasty man-Aged me beyond my years;Taught me how to con-Steal without being caught;See who's working undercover-And see who's being bought;Fame and reputation-Paved the way for me;Dirty beds and dirty whores-No, they weren't for me;Made my living illegally-But, who was I to care;I had everything I wanted-Money and fame to spare;Channeled my aggression-Into a funeral pyre;No one stood against me-Or they ended up in the fire;Came a time for old age-About forty it seems;Man came to see me-Gun in hand for me;Said I killed his brother-Cleaning up the streets;By then I'd killed so many-What did one more mean;Shot me twice clean through-In the heart it seems;Lying in a pool of blood-I drifted to my dreams;Breathed one more time-And sighed my final breath;Found my way to the other side-Greeted there by death;Found myself outside a house-As beautiful as can be;Knocked on the door-Just to see what I could see;A man came and answered-And asked me my name;I said I was an urchin-Called Sandel Brown by name;He asked me in and told me to wait-His Master was busy just now;Have a seat and mind my ways-He'd get me in some how;I sat and waited for a while I guess-I lost track of time;Found myself wondering-What was going on this time;The man came to see me-Said to walk this way;He'd worked me into an appointment-With his Master today;We walked into a den-With books from wall to wall;With a desk in the middle-And his Master seated tall;He greeted me warmly-Said he was expecting me;Asked me if I was tired-From such a long journey;I looked at him quizzically-Unsure of his meaning;He said he understood-But didn't give his meaning;He asked if I understood-Just where I was;I said no-But was sure I wasn't at home;He chuckled at my reply-Said yes this isn't your home;Said he would explain-If I'd sit for a time;He said he'd been watching me-And all that I had done;From the very beginning-To the setting of my sun;He said you've died and come to heaven-And I am the one true GOD;Time for us to take account-Of the life you lived;He opened up the book-Started on page one;Skimming through the pages-Seeing all that I had done;He closed the book before Him-And looked me in the eye;Sandel Brown I'm troubled-But, you must know the reason why;I know you heard the gospel-Even as a child;But ever since then-You've been running wild;Your mama said she told you-What was wrong and right;I was there with her-So I know she never lied;But you lied and you cheated-Have stolen and beaten;Murdered and raped-With no rhyme or reason;Worshipped idols galore-Built alters for all to use;Brought as many with you-That you could abuse;The list is so long-I've no time to read it all;But let me just say-I think you've done it all;Is there a reply-A word to set it straight;Something to change my mind-Before I shut the gate;Sandel thought for a moment-Then spoke with a quiet voice;It is as you have said-I'm as guilty as can be;I'm a sinner from way back-Took all that I could see;My hands are so dirty-I'll never get them clean;Like the urchin I am-Water won't help me;I've known the difference-Between right and wrong;But I chose a different path-Heard in poetry and songs;I turned my back upon all that is good-Never expecting to see the light;Only did wrong and never the right-As my mama said I should;Well you have spoken-For indeed it is the truth;You are an evil man-A savage since your youth;My judgement will stand-To hell you shall go;Never to see the light-Shine upon your soul;You will be shown the way-No more shall you be lost;You will be in hell-No matter the cost;David will show the way-The path is easy to find;Sandel Brown goodbye-You are lost for all time;Sandel Brown walked away-Never saying a word;He knew what was coming-Because of his evil works;Hell fire and brimstone-Sulfur and fumes for days;No going back-This is the end of days;I lived my life with disregard-For anyone but me;Chose the path I am on-But, what else could there be;I broke the rules of a decent world-And lived a life of sin;I find myself with no regret-Heaven won't let me in;I am called an urchin-Sandel Brown by name;This is my epitaph-This my claim to fame;Don't follow in my footsteps-Or take my advice;Just remember this one thing-There is a hell and it's not nice;
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