Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

How can I ever say goodbye to you? I miss you. I really, really miss you. My life will never feel right without you in it. I have to make my marraige work, knowing that I'm still very much in love with you. Since our first kiss, it has always been you. I could not choose who I fell in love with. It just happened. 
There is nothing that I can do about that. I wanted you. I wanted us more than anything. I still do.
I have a confession to make. I knew that you still had my card before you told me that day. I looked. Sorry. (You can get angry with me now.) When I saw the other letters I got jealous. I did not know how to respond when you told me. What difference did it make anyway? That night when we were alone felt so awkward. We did not talk to each other. I wanted to. I should have. I admit that I was scared. I did not know how you would have reacted. I tried to tell you that I still loved you too. Very, very much. Texting you on inappropriate times. Calling you that last time. I was really scared. I'm still here on the other side, fighting to get over you, but I know now that you can never be replaced. Nothing and no-one can ever replace you. I'm still thinking about you every single day. I long to see your face, your eyes, your smile, your voice. It's a longing that can never be stilled. I wish you told me the truth years ago. Then I would never  have been in this mess. There's no way that I will ever forget you or stop missing you, longing for you. 

I love you.
Always and forever.
Your Silent Angel.