The Only Control I Have Left
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I do not wish to be skinny
But somehow I still don't eat
The control it makes me feel
To restrict myself from food
The pain it makes me feel
When my stomach starts to complain
And I don't eat just for that sensation
But at some point
I started to weigh myself
I do not wish to be skinny
I wish to make myself suffer
I want to reach a point
That makes people worry
When they look at me
Fear for my well being
I want them to notice
But then again
I hide everything
Deny all accusations
So is it really for attention?
Or do I just like to suffer
The control I have
When I restrict myself from food
Not eating
Skipping meals
Convincing others that I ate
Staying awake at night
Sleep deprived and hungry
I do not want you to worry
I just want to hurt myself