
Songs Can Change Your Life Suicide
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Last night and I'm blunt as can be
Life or suicide overwhelmed me
Feeling trapped in a way that's too long to explain
So I played the devil's game mind a complete mess
Listened to suicide letter
And I don't dare cry
Months n years with nothing changing to my surprise
Giving up the fight to change n collect others
Giving up my dreams n the fire
Anger I replaced over any type of crying power
At the end of song was a hotline number tho
So those like Eminem who say music don't effect your day
Or who u r or want to be...I love him...but I call his bullshit bc he still hasn't done anything
N with that money id do so much for others
I called the number
I didn't do it
But everyday s fight
Knowing what I dream n lovr n trapped between a hard spot and life
Confused n alone abandoned to young
Grew up to fast to not get what I see in my past
But I almost let it all go if not for that song
I need to find a way out
I need a new start
I need to do what's in my heart
Bc if I can't then let me go and have another replace me
What I want will be hard extremely n the days melt to the same not seeing no steps go in my way
Kills me inside but by the grace of God I didn't take my life.
Ppl think I'm crazy for my dreams I think there crazy they have known n most then half ain't happy or hide that there on a run....from themselves n the truth
My dream is life changing
Not very educated
But I still believe I can make it.
How?
That's God's will
Bc right now I'm trapped n I'll
Trying to fight back the devil
Getting thru hell like a serious screwed up rebel
But how does someone start the change the want when there on ssd with almost 20 illnesses they plea
How do I start a buisness to make the money I need to change the community.
How do I start? Will they listen? Should I even try? I just turn 37 n counting down till I'm 38 n 39.
I've seen it done already but it started that way
What I want to do will be opposite no handed plan from uncle Sam
It's not just a dream but am urge inside
If I had that kind of money OMG WOULD YOU BE SURPRISED
But the rich stay rich in there click
The ones like me homeless can't afford a studio with dreams die silently
All bc we became we set in r place n can't get higher up in a fast pace
But that's another rant another story to tell.
All I want to say if u have a dream urging u to fight n feel corned n no way out n tried it all
Don't pull the trigger or hang the rope above
The suicide hotline will help you get back above
I just wish I could get a house with all this shit on r that work my ass off for my business make millions n it's going on blast. Community not greed. Let's see.
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