Category : Poems

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If only she had not existed.
If only she had died.
If only she got better,
but instead she only cried.
You can only see her tears,
not the damage inside.
She will never be really loved
even if she tried.
She will never even find the words,
they can never understand.
She cannot even understand herself.
Why her life is slipping from her hands.
She just wants it to be over.
She just wants life to be done,
because she stands alone in this darkness,
while they are standing in the sun.
She will never be good enough,
no matter if she tries.
Wishing she could make sense of her whole life.
If it was not caught up in lies.
She lost control and cannot gain.
Whatever she does, causes pain.
She cannot explain the things that she say.
Even if she wanted things to be different,
she cannot change if they are set in this way.
If only she had not existed.
If only she had died.
If only she got better,
but instead she only cried.
A battle she will never win it seems.
A life she imagined, only lives in her dreams.
She cannot leave and she cannot stay.
She cannot be what she wants to be.
Not understanding why it has to be this way.
Everyone seems like they are lying.
Losing control of her mind,
while her heart is slowly dying.