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I'm not running back to anyone,
I've been accepting things.
I haven't talked to anyone else...
It's almost been a year now, 
All I've done is think...

All I did was torture myself,
Year after year...
I'm not toying with you,
I'm facing this.

I don't want to be this mess anymore,
I want what I know is real.
I'm sick and tired of giving up on myself,
And not facing you about how I feel.

It took me a long time to get here,
To this point in my life.
Accepting God is point one,
Accepting I ran so many times instead of facing how I felt is point two.
Accepting the fact I've broken so many people is point three.
Accepting I don't have to let my shitty childhood make me feel worthless or undeserving is point four.
Accepting I didn't love myself enough is point five.
Accepting I let others control my actions at certain points is point six.
Accepting I turned myself narcissistic is point seven.
Accepting I let what other people say get the better of me is point eight.
Accepting I never truly healed is point nine.
Accepting you is point ten. 

I'm not who I used to be, not anymore. 
I'm doing my best to just, do better, and be better.