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I know you expected me to do what I’ve always done..- be upset, loud and throwing things about...
But that’s just it-
I’m not going to do that.
I don’t have it in me anymore.
I’ve done all I can do, I’ve cried all the tears I can cry..I don’t have anything left. Nothing.
You’ve hurt me too many times, crushed my spirit repeatedly and did things to me that someone who loves me wouldve never done.
I know now that there are so many more types of abuse than just physical.
My heart is heavy as I feel these words, but what I’m doing now is long overdue.
That silence you didn’t expect..the quiet that confuses you..
Is my way of letting you go.
It will still hurt me and it won’t be easy, but it’s time for me to walk away from you.
I’m a shell of who I once was, and it’s nobody’s fault but my own for letting it happen.
It stops now, and I’m all out of anger, loud words and tears about you and us.
I’m done.
You probably won’t ever understand why because you can’t see your true self and that makes me sad.
I hope someday you realize what you did was wrong and you change those ugly parts of you that need to evolve.
I always believed you could, but you have to want to first..
Because deep down, I know you’ll always have a place in my heart, but never again in my life.
I deserve better than the heart breaking treatment you gave me.
I deserve to find myself again, learn to love myself and finally get back to the woman I once was..
And I’ll never do it with you.
Everything happens for a reason, and this was probably my life’s biggest lesson..
I learned what love isn’t and how it shouldn’t feel so that I’ll never let it happen again.
So, for all the ugly things you did to me that I’ll find the healing to forgive you for…
In the end, you cut me so deeply that you gave me the greatest gift of all-
The strength to begin the journey back home to myself.
You set me free

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  • my pain

    Jun 03, 2022

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