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         Most tender spot


by Sandra Kay Johnson on May 31, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Wish you was going to be with me tonight baby wish. I could make love to you tonight. Have your breast rubbing against mine and in my mouth.

I'll start bey whispering how much I love you baby, have to have you in your ear.Then kiss your lips and neck then keep moving lower and lower.Kissing every inch of your body 👅 till i reach

Your most tenders spot.

Then i kiss ever so gently with my lips so wet. Then suck an lick you and make you all wet.

I need you i crave to taste you and make you cum like never before. Then always 


leave you begging for more.

Stop take a little kiss break, making you shiver and quiver and leave you longing for more. I'll start all over from your head to your most tenders spot again.

Taking you to places and feelings you swore you've never been.

For i crave you i need to taste your lips on mine. I long to have you I'm so happy that you're mine.

I want to taste all of you. And leave you hipnotize. Then come back up to make love with you by locking our eyes.

While holding your hands in mine.

I long to leave you longing for the feeling i make you feel. So utterly unreal.

Just imagine after you get the first taste of my love. How great it would be to feel this way for all eternity.

I'm so ready to make you feel like you have never ever felt before. And for the rest of 


our life you have me. And i promise to always make you feel. Like each and every time is 1000 time better than it was before.

  By Sandra k Johnson May,27,2021


Us destined to be together


by Sandra Kay Johnson on May 31, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


God baby I love you too the moon and back again till after the world ends and with our love for each other and the faith and love we have for God we can make enough Love for God to have the world made a new from the love of our souls longing for one another.

Our love for each other will be the greatest love story ever told in our time and any other time that is yet to come.



No other love will out do our love for each other. Évery one wants what we have and training to take it from us and take us apart. But twin flame's are destined free together since the beginning of time the only one true love God created to be apart and  to once more.


And the love so intensely and so over welling at times scars the other half to stay away from the other one.casing a lot of pain for the two of them at. Times even making one of them think of leaving the other for something leaser and it's always ends up being not what they want or need.always left feeling empty and longing for the one other half of there being there very existence.


That they always forget about everything 


they have done that has hurt them.And getting lost in each other's love thoughts and affection.


They become so much better than they was before growing together to the point where they don't know where the one ends and the other begins.


Where the one can't without the other for a long period of time. Or they feel as if they have lost everything they have.Till they. Because together again.


This will continue to be the dance for the two twin flame's till they are both in touch with their own inner peace and at one with their self and heald and over all the hurt and painful past parts of there life

That they have been through while searching and longing for one another in a 


best once they both have heald each other from afar. Then the time will come when they get to beTogether for the very first time. And when this meeting finally comes it's as if heaven comes down to earth and the twin flams soles Intertwines and become one again one again with each other and one again with God. This is the closest thing to Gods love any one can ever come.


Is being the special one that gets to have a twin flame that only once in a lifetime happens. And I am so happy and honored to have found mine.


Places we've never been


by Sandra Kay Johnson on May 31, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved



My angel, my life, my entire world, please be with me always, my one and only girl. I love you so deeply, that I know is so true, for there is no one else, my heart beats but you. No matter what happens, you’re always the one, that I want to come home to, I’m yours to have a to hold. 

Till death Doo us part. I will always treat you with the most respect you ever had. 


Give you the most love and affection you have to say hold on slow down it just becoming way to strong but please don't stop because it's making me feel wonderful. 


I want to make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside and have the very pit of your stomach down close to your pelvic flirting with admiration 


Felling so strong and good just for a while it takes your breath and closes your eye 


Making you feel week having to take hold making your body out of control. Making you crave me having to have me close but  ever so gentle i have my way with you causing you to do things and feel things you never knew was true. 


Making you shiver and quiver and wiggle and squirm and leaving you begin and yearning to finally get to take your turn. But yet wait hunny I'm still not through with you there is just still a little bit higher ecstasy i have to get you to


As you keep saying oh I've never felt this good before i contenue making you feel so much better than before. 

Loving and kissing you galore teasing and 


making you beg  like you have never before leaving you longing and hungry for some more. 


Till finally you reach the bitter sweet end where your feeling like your in heaven and you can't move. Because you feel so good  it temporary paralyzed you too.


Making you to where you can't stand anymore your legs close up on me traping me there as i contenue to teas you then come back up for air 


You feel so good all your stress became released but still you can't move i left you feeling so week slowly you begin to move reaching for me pulling me up against you. 


Kissing me just as i started with you making me do all the things that i made 


you as I'm telling you baby no please don't stop you slowly come  back up to the top kissing and gently

Touching every inch of my skin taking me to places I've never had been 


Making me want you and need you like never before. Moaning  and groaning and wanting so much more

Then there you go my breath is gone I'm wiggling and quivering like i have never done before. 

Shaking all over saying baby please don't stop because you make me feel so good. 

Then my legs close up on you as you continue to please me and tease me making me want you again to. So i reach out for you pulling you're body to mine 

Making you look in to my baby blue eyes as i softly whisper bay o how i love you you're the best that's ever been. I've never 


have been to the places that i just now  have been. 


Now we lay down in each other's arms still feel like we never ever have felt before. Breathing so hard for a while tracing heart and i love you upon each other's shin. 


Till it's time to do it all over again. 


Love you baby let's both take one another to places we've never been.


God's Angeles


by Sandra Kay Johnson on May 31, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Just when you lose all hope you start to see a strange Glow what is this Glow every 


one wants to know.

It keeps growing bigger and brightener then it begins to take a form

The form of a human with long flowing wings white as snow theses wing's would glow but we have yet to know

As we sit scared stiff wondering what this really could be

It finally Don's on me

Can it be one of God's Angel's he has sent to me i guess it could be.

O'how beautiful they are you can see them from a far

So humongous so full of love and life they only come to us during troubled times.

When a loved one has passed away they come to us to say it's ok

They are around us all the time but we don't see them because we are blind.

You have to hold on and keep your faith and one of God's Angel's will come to you 


and stay.

With long flowing hair bright blue eyes big White wings that stretch from her head down to her feet

With a warm loving feeling they will bring.

Light Shining out from them so bright you can hardly stand to keep open your eyes that's God's Angel by your side.

By Sandra k Johnson July 15, 2005


Making love with our souls


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 3, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Hi love. I'm here still up thinking about us. Been praying for us. For God to continue to bless us and our future with love romance and respect.

And success in all that we  do together. 


God I long for you.

For your touch your kiss. Your smell your smile and your voice.


I m going to start putting money back each and every week when I get paid. I want you to do the same. So see can put it together and get you and the kids back hone.


I can't stad being apart from you any longer. The intensifying strong overwhelming feeling I feel coming from all theses miles away.


People would say that we are crazy. Insane love can't be that strong to were you make each other week sending chills of electrifying warm electricity though one another's body's.


Causing each other to go mad and want to be together. Never to be apart again. And once we reunite it's going to be unlike anything you have ever experienced in your life.


When we touch each other were going to become week chills of warm electricity raging through our bodies. The pit of our stomach is going to fill so utterly strong of butterflies and the best breathtaking feeling you could ever imagine possible.


We will be making love with our Souls The exact special moment when our souls become one untangled. Making us feel so amazing. All it takes is a touch a kiss.


A look in to each other's eyes. We become mesmerized. Feeling love so strong it's as if we where physically making love to one 


another.


Except yet we are just agents each other holding one another's. While our souls make love to each other. On the spiritual realm. Driving us even more mad for each other.


This dance will be our dance each time before we make love in physical form. Your going to be moaning and groaning lose your breath. Wiggle and giggle and quiver and squirm.


Just as if we where physically making love. This will last for hours and hours. Feeling oh so good. Then we will finally get to get physically involved.

Then oh God how everything is going to be so intense. That you're going to be begging for me to make love to you over 


and over again.


That's where I better let this writing end. I love you baby you're the bestest that's ever been.


Sandra K. Johnson 6, 03, 20021


I Want to Make you feel the richest.


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 4, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Baby i want you home so bad. I want to be with you. I want to please you and make you feel like you have never felt before.

I want to make you smile all the time even if you are angry or sad i want to put the biggest smile on your face.  



I want you to feel like you have the best partner lover wife best friend that you could ever have imagined could possibly be.


I want to make you feel like you hang the moon. Like your so rich with love romance respect. That no matter if you're broke to your still the richest you could ever be.


i want to give you everything you've ever dreamed of and so much more baby. I will do anything and everything in my power to give you the world.


I will if I'm upset with you. I promise to never stay upset for long. And i want you to always know that no matter what I say at the time I'm angry or upset i don't mean it.



And i will never ever leave you for anything in this world. Someone can offer me all the money in the world all the dimensions gold Emery's pearls.


Every riches there is to have. To leave you a d i would tell them hell now.  Ide rather be the poorest person on the face of the earth then to leave my baby.


Because even though the world think I'm the poorest and people look down upon me.  I Feel like I'm the richest most happiest Person who walks the face of the earth because i have you.


You're worth more then life itself. I i had to choose between living or dying to save our baby i would choose death. Because i would never want to be alive without you.



If you needed a heart to Survive and mine was the only one compatible i would tell them to take  mine because mine only beats for you and belongs to you alone.


I love you baby. And i sore wish you were here to see how much love i have for you and our family. I wish you could feel my love for you.


I wish I could make you see yourself the way i see you and feel the love the way you make me feel. I pray for us each and every day.

That God will provide a way to bring you and the kids back home to me. And that he continues to bless us with so much love and respect and romance for one another that we can change this world.  


With our love we can make this world and brighter and better place. That we can touch other people's hearts and soles.


With peace love and respect.  That the learn form us Gods love. Forgiveness no matter what. Never to give up on each other no matter how hard it gets and what may come our way.  


I want to teach the world how to love and to be a better nation under God. Because you and i have enough love for each other our kids and God.


To supply the hole world 100, 000, 000, 000 times over again and again. I love you baby God has us he will bring you back home to me i believe he will.  


Good night wish you were here so i could 


tell you good night and kiss you good night and hold you be you comfort and protein through any storm that you face.

I'll be here to pull you through your toughest storm with my love and Gods love.


Your so amazing


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 4, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


And you my darling amazing gorgeous beautiful wife make me the proudest wife ever just to have you as mine.

And you are such an awesome amazing hard worker.

Not only at our job but you work had at our relationship keeping me on track and out of depression. That's a big job. You bring 


out the very best in me.

And that's something no one else has ever been able to do before.


You have made me feel loved and thought me how to receive love and respect. I have never felt love before. I shut down all my feelings and emotions when i was a very young little girl.  

Never let myself feel cry nothing since I was 5.


And you have changed all that for me and it's over welling at times. Because it's been so long since I have felt anything like this.  Or experience it almost my hole life i have gone with out felling.


And you my miracle sent from God bright and shining star. You took that hurt scared little girl in side me and did something no 


one else has ever been able to do before


You heald her and made her feel loved again. And safe.

You my love never seas to amaze me in every thing you do you amaze me.


Happy new month my love 😘


I can't wait


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 4, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


My. Love i can not wait to fell you're body agenst mine. Lay with you i my arms underneath the star lit sky. Look in to your beautiful dark brown eyes

Kiss your lips 👄💋 whisper i love you baby in your ear. And how much I want 


you. Then make love to you out under the stars.

Making you feel oh so good. And having you on top of the world. You're the most amazing part of my life. I want to always keep you happy and satisfied.

I want to always treat you with the most respect there is. And give you more love the this world can hold.  

I love you my darling amazing gorgeous beautiful wife.

You make me so happy and make me feel so alive inside. And I'm so extremely proud that you are mine.


A Mother's love never ends.


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 5, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


I won't give up o won't give in i Will fight them  until it all ends because a Mother's love it never ends 

On the day i had to let you go it broke my heart and crushed my sole. But i keep love you both with all my heart even though man's injustice keeps us  apart.

As i sit and look at your pictures and the tears they run down my face i can't wait to hold you my darlings in a Mother's worm in race. I can still see your smiling faces and hear your sweet little voices say mommy please mommy don't let them take you away.

And i promise i won't give up i won't give in i will fight them until it all ends because a Mother's love it never ends. No a Mother's love my darlings it never ends. 


Author notes



I wrote this for my 2 oldest kids when i went through my first divorce.


You never cease to amaze me


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 5, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


And you my darling amazing gorgeous beautiful wife make me the proudest wife ever just to have you as mine.

And you are such an awesom amazing hard worker.

Not only at our job but you work had at our relationship keeping me on track and out of depression. That's a big job. You bring out the very best in me.

And that's something no one else has ever been able to do before.



You have made me feel loved and thought me how to receive love and respect. I have never felt love before. I shut down all my feelings and emotions when i was a very young little girl.  

Never let myself feel cry nothing since I was 5.


And you have changed all that for me and it's over welling at times. Because it's been so long since I have felt anything like this.  Or exsperience it almost my hole life i have gone with out felling.


And you my miracle sent from God bright and shining star. You took that hurt scared little girl in side me and did something no one else has ever been able to do before


You heald her and made her feel loved 


again. And safe.

You my love never seas to amaze me in every thing you do you amaze me.


Happy new month my love 😘


You Gave me Meaning


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 5, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Meeting you is what gave meaning to my life and strength to face anything life can throw at me. I am truly blessed to have you in my life. I love you!

My heart belongs to you and it doesn’t want anything but you. You are the reason for my smile and my happiness. I adore you.

Your alluring presence always brightens 


my days. You are like a magical being that is loving, sweet, simply perfect. I would truly be lost without you.

Sweetheart, you inspired me to be romantic, passionate and ready to sacrifice for you. I never thought I would feel this way and it is all because of you. I love you, my dear!

Each time I look at you, I just smile to myself and think, ‘I certainly could not have done better’. You are perfect the way you are. I love you honey.

My dear, you are the perfect match for me, the true blessing of a lifetime and I love you now and always will.

Your presence in my life is a blessing of a lifetime. You are the gift that I never dared to ask for. The love you have given me is more than I could ever imagine.

My heart is overflowing with the love I feel for you and my soul is blissfully happy 


because of you.

The more I spend time with you, the more I fall in love with you every day. You have a very gentle and beautiful heart that I promise to take care of all my life. I love you!

So far, every moment we’ve spent together has been awesome. But I solemnly promise you that the best is yet to come.

It doesn’t matter where you are, I can always hear your heartbeat when I lay down and see your face when I close my eyes. I love you, sweetheart!

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I had no control over.

Love can never be measured. It can only be felt. You have painted my life with the colors of heaven. I don’t want anything else as long as your love is with me

You can finish counting the stars in the 


sky but you can never finish counting the love I have for you. Because my heart is filled with infinite love for you.

I have seen the truest and purest form of love in you. I don’t need anything else in life as long as I have your love.

You are genuine, you are a beautiful being and I am extremely lucky to know you. Know that my heart will always beat for you. I love you!

Nothing in this world can replace you in my heart. I love you today, everyday and forever!


Jesus Christ the innocent man.


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 5, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


All he ever did was love he was as innocent as a snow white dove. He was sent to us to give us all the knowledge we needed. He didn't deserve to be so miss treated.


We handed him over the the Evel men who done unto him there Evel plans. Whey did we have to deceive him Jesus Christ the innocent man. 


There was those that ran off to hide and others the still stood faithfully by his side. Other they laugh and so who cried. The day that he died


And there was one they even said that committed suicide.  Oh why did we have to turn our backs on him and why did we have to give him over to the Evel men who done unto him there Evel plans Jesus 


Christ the innocent man.


All he did was spread his love. And knowledge to us on how to Get in to heaven. But we let them take him and beat him so badly.


Oh why did we have to turn him over to the Evel men and let them do unto him there Evel plans.  Why couldn't we have just followed him through to the holy lands Jesus Christ the innocent man.


I love you because


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 5, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


I love you because you are very understanding forgiving kind and always 


full of love and respect.


I love you because you have the biggest heart there is. i love you because. You never give up on me even win I've given up on myself.


I love you because you're always lifting me up when i am feeling down

I love you because you're always working hard to get us to a better place in this life.


I love you because you're my beautiful amazing wife. I love you because you're full of love and life. I love you because you're always walking by my side.

I love you because you're you and don't have to be anything more. I love you because you're full of love for our lord.


I love you because you make me the 


happiest woman in this hole inter world. Most of all i love you because you choose me to be yours.


I love you beautiful. You make me so proud of you.


God's love


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 5, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


God's love is patient god's love is kind. God's love never leaves you out in the blind.

God's love is never ending. God's love is fast. When you follow God your shore to have a blast.

God's love is everlasting unconditional and strong. When you follow God in your life 


you should do no wrong.

God's love is beautiful. God's love is enduring. When you follow God your life is never doll or boring.


Take you away


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 6, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


I long to kiss your lips,move on to our neck. Whispering i love you baby in your ear. Look in to your beautiful brown eyes with all the love that i hold in side.

Then continue kissing you inch by inch. Wile slowly ever  gently touching every inch of your skin.

Kissing and feeling you're body agenst mine. Slowly moving down a little more.

Making you crave me having to have me.



Wondering when I'm finally going to reach that spot, causing you to become so hot.

Then here i finally go.

I'm there and teasing you making you moan and groan like you have never done before.

Taking your breath away, causing you to feel week,having you quivering  and shivering and saying yes oh baby yes this Time i think i have been my very best.

And then I want to lay my head upon your beautiful breasts. Having them in my mouth making a so wet.. Causing you to want me to start all over again.

Having you beg me please bay please make me feel like you have never made me feel before.

I need to have you finish this please i can't stand waiting for you to take me to my highest ecstasy.



So then here we go again kissing and making love like no love has ever been.

Over and over again you get to have it any time night or day all you have to do is tell me that you need me and want me To take you away.


You're the most precious peace


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 6, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


God spent special time and care on you molding you from the pursuit of molds they're ever was he molded you as one of his most precious angels in heaven above..


Just so perfect full of love and light and 


life for me all the time. When i am down your always the one who knows just how to bring me back up and you always catch me just before I hit the ground..


I have never know o love so pure unconditional positive piercing lightning bolt striking as yours.


I've never known such angelic beauty as yours... He shore knew what he was doing when he mad you so utterly perfect for me every you...


I'm feeling deeper and deeper in love with you baby each and every day.

You touch my heart and soul like no one else but God can do. He broke the mold after he made me you.


Your my everything I'm so proud of you in 


every way shape and forme. Your so amazing baby I'm very proud to call you mine.

You overwhelm my heart with the purest of love the love sent directly from God above.

Every time I think of you my hole body gets all fuzzy and warm loving feeling you always bring to me like lightning bolt striking a tree.


God made you prefect just for me!

I love you baby


Fallen Love


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 8, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved



There once was a love that i thought was so true. Then everyone else showed me the truth even you.


You betray me hurt me over and over again. Repeating it to many times. So many times these tears i no longer cry.


I shut down my emotions and feeling once more. To where i no longer have to feel the betrayal and hurt.


I once again become the hurt little girl. Unable to trust unable to love.  

Unable to have hopes that i can dream of.


My heart has been locked up tight once again. Unable to except love from anyone. Knowing that I'll never have anyone. So once again fallen love finds you again.



Lost and lonely once more. Longing for the love that i once had. Wanting to give up. Feeling like a beaten and battered little pup.  


Hurt like I've never been hurt before you ripped my heart out then slammed the door. Leaving my gaping wood gushing with blood.

Why did i ever give in and trust and fall in love.


Just to be shown the truth again. They will only hurt you and in this life your never going to be able to trust another again. And love is never going to happen because no one is as faithful and true as you are to them.


Shattered Heart


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 8, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


This herat is shattered in to a billion peaces. And it's been shattered by the hands of you.

You promised you never would hurt me of do me wrong. I was stupid and believe in you all along.

Forgiving you over and over again. For all the heart ache and heart break you caused me over and over again.

This time the hurt is to deep the knife 🗡️🔪 you used to cut open my heart and Leve it bleeding out. Is too deep to mend.

I don't know if I can ever forgive you again. I don't know if my heart you can ever mend to become yours again.


Do you have the power do you love me true will you prove your love is true. And be able to mend the billion peaces to my heart together again.

Is there enough of our love left alive to mend this gaping wound that you've left inside.

You're actions what you chose will decide. Wether or not our love will live or die.

Your the only one who can decide. Wether or not i may live or die. Only you have the power to mend the broken heart i have inside.

It's your decision can you will you mend this shattered Heart of mine.


Love is


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 8, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved



Love is a never ending battle between the good and the bad. And the devil tries to take away all that you have.


Sending temptation in your life trying to take away your love. Sending temptation to the one that you love.


Causing you to feel like you have been betrayed. Leaving you in a battle of dismayed.


Love is loving someone so much that no matter what life throws at you you never given up on that love.


Love is standing beside the one who you love through thick or through thin.

And never given up no matter what f waits for you around the bend.



Love is believing in the person who you're with. And forgive them for hurting you over and over again.


Love is being willing to give up what you know is wrong. To make your love last and contenue to grow strong.


Love is always praying to God for guidance and light. To send our relationship on the right side.


Love is always being the better one and forgive the one that has done you wrong. And never staying upset of mad for to long.


I love you baby and my love for you is strong. And I'm not letting you destroy what we have by the choices you have made.



I'll be the stronger one and pray for God to send our relationship the right way.


Good bye


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 8, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Good bye then you showed  me that you don't love me. You showed me you don't care. You showed me that i can't trust you. 


You showed me that our relationship never ment a thing to you. You have proven to me that you have been cheating on me this whole  entire time.


And proven to me that your still on all the dating sights. You have shown me that 


you are a heartless cruel cold hearted bitch 


All the whore post you post for all the men you're fucking in your life. 

You won't delete the account because you love the men you get through it you have a different one fucking you every night. 


God looks down upon you in pure and utter shame. You have committed the worst crime ever against God adultery. 


You have just hurt one of his precious Angels he sent to you. 

And for that he will never forgive you. He will leave you herat broken 💔 forever.  


Lost lonely never to have your true love again. That he had given to you and you took advantage of. 


  

You took a heart so pure in touched  and ripped it out and crushed it in to a billion peaces. You have not ony do this to me. But you have also done this to God himself. 


Tonight 10, 000, 000, 000 angels cry 😭 poring out for the love that you chose to leave behind. Gods tears are poring down from the sky. 


As you chose to turn your back on him and the love he sent to you. It's as if you took Jesus Christ himself and crucified him all over again. 


With all your lyes and betrayal. You contenue telling and doing. Yes all these writing to will be published. 

About how you was so childish and you 


thought it would be ok to use Gods Angel that he sent your way.


I have never loved the way that i love you!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 9, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Baby i have never loved anyone the way that i love you. I have never felt love this strong before the why i feel for you.


I have never been so scand of losing anything in my life before. As i am scared of losing you. I have never been in love before the way that I'm in love with you.


I have never adored anyone else they way that i adore you. Your my hope when all 


hope is lost.  You my joy when all is hate.


You my light when all is dark. Your my hereat when my heart doesn't want to exist. You my air when i need to breath.


Your my comfort when i am hurt. Your my inspiration when all is at end. Your my most prize possession. And nothing else matters to me my love except making you feel loved and as loved as you make me feel.


If i had to choose between losing you or living i would choose death because without you my love. My life is meaningless.


Empty dark gray and dreary.

With you my love my life is so strong true passionate. Full of hope, love, romantic, 


emotional connection.


And so very much full of Gods love to...

I love you my beautiful wife you make me feel like No one else can.


Only you can drive me utterly mad 😡 that i completely lose my mind. And go off without thinking about what I'm talking about.


And say such hurtful things. That i don't really mean.. And only you have the power to bring out the very best in me and the utterly most worst in me.


And in the end only you can calm my raging bull headed ness. I love you baby thank you for being the greatest love I've ever known.


The innocent child


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 9, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


There once was a child her love it grew so wiled. In till one day this pore little child.


She had to hide all her Pain and fear behind her little smile. She never got to play. Because she was way to scared to say.


She was being molested by her next door neighbor. She was being molested by he dad's best friend as well. Oh she can remember that horrible smell.


The smell of the filthy Nasty men who did to her such horrible eval things. Causing 


this por little girl so much pain.


Cutting her with knifes. Making her want to take her own life. She even attempted suicide. And that made her family cry.


Still they know nothing about what this litte girl hides deep down inside.

Sho she runs off to hide. Outside down by the river bank.


She hides in the woods where she started to feel good. Talking to God. Praying for him to leave things change. Sho she would no longer have to live through this pain.


Then she looks up in to the beautiful little baby blue sky. And that's when God opend the little girls eyes. As she watches the birds fly.


And then she knew just what she had to do. She had to tell and no hide. She had to let some one know what she hide deep down inside.


So this poor little innocent child. Started to cry she started to sob.

Then she saw a beautiful snow white dove. Man she has been through things that has been unheard of.


Baby can you


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 11, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Baby if i told you that I'm sorry. Would you believe me? If i told you that I deeply and truly love you. Would you even care?  


Hunny if i cut my own heart out for you and gave it to you. Would you except me as i am?  Would you want me now, even though you know that i am broken, And i need to heal?


Would you take ahold of my hand and help me stand? Would you forget about all the things i say? when I'm in my love you rampage, and jealousy stage?


I know that sometimes i miss behave! And i cause you to become dismayed.  I don't mean for it to turn out this way. But it does because of choices we both made! 


Please forgive me baby because sometimes i get lost. And don't know what I'm doing. At the time because I'm in a prime defense mode. Trying to keep what is mine.



I don't mean to make you feel like you are not special at times.  I wish I can turn back the hands of time. To when we first met. And you couldn't stand it to be with out me. For a long period of time.


You would stay up all night and talk about our plans our love our future. You would call me up just to say how much you love me and missed me.


I miss looking in to your beautiful brown eyes. And becoming lost in your sole of love for us. Would you forget about the hurtful things that i have said and done and forgive me?

If i told you that you are still my only.


Would you come running back to me with open arms? And let me love you just like 


our first time!


Can you please baby find it in your heart to forgive me once more?  And i have forgotten and forgiven the things that you have done.


Can we please become us once again? I know this love lite is still flickering! Can we come back to together? And make it burn out of control once again?


Baby i pray for our love each and every day. I promise you that no matter what. I Will never give up on your love. I'll never give up on you.


Baby im here to always and forever stand by you. In all that you do. I want to hold your hand and be the one who helps you stand.



I want to walk with you hand and hand.  Through the snow white sand.  I want to give to you back all the love and romance i once gave to you. And i want to praise you in all that you do.


Baby even though I get upset and angry. It doesn't mean i think any less of you. It doesn't mean i don't love you. Or that I'm going to leave you.


It just means we have a little bump in the road like many bumps we have faced before. We always come and stand together and we face the battle head on.  

We over come everything that is and was going wrong.


And we stay standing together united in our love so strong. God answered so many 


of my prayers when he sent you to me. And i want  for you to know  you mean the world to me.


I wish I could let you see through my eyes. The beauty, love, trust, strength

Inspiring woman that i see in you. Then you would understand why I'm so proud of you no matter what you do.


My pride in you never grows cold it's always very strong. Only you have the power to make me smile when I'm so very angry i can just scream.


Only you can make me laugh when i want to cry. You darling and only you are the apple of my eye. Your the keeper of my heart. It's been You and only you who has ever heald the key to my heart.


And it just rips my heart out when you're mad at me and you choose for us to be  apart.  

And it kills me to know i have hurt you so. To make you feel like you just can't be with me anymore.


Can you please find it in your heart to forgive me? And take me back to where you once loved me? And you cared enough for me that you could not stand to be away from me!


Can you find it in you heart to love me as i am? To stand beside me trough what ever storms may come our way!  Will you stand beside me and say hunny it's going to be ok? I'm with you my love to stay.


Can you find it in your heart to see me as i see you? Flawless and perfect in every 


thing that you do! Because my love is true! And i truly appreciate everything that you do!

I truly love and respect and honer you.


My beautiful Queen! Can you please forgive me? And come back to me once more? Because you're the one and only one who i love and adore! Love you baby missing you please come back!


Your the best part of me.


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 12, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


You make me feel so unreal. This love of ours is so extremely strong for one another. That's i have felt you holding me in your arms.



I've felt your kiss upon my lips.  I fell you warm and tender touch. And each and every day the strength grows stronger and more intense.


That i can't stand us being apart anymore. I need you i want you i crave you. I need to hear your voice and feel your touch your kiss and taste you're taste smell your sent.


See your beautiful face and body first hand. Hold you make love to you. Sweep you of your feet with this romance that i only know because of you.


I want to love you and make love to you till death Doo us part. And make the love keep growing deeper than anything else you have ever seen before.


The more I spend time with you the more stronger my love becomes for you. You can and only you can calm me when I'm upset.


I'm so glad we are both forgiving and able to make it through anything that life throws at us.


How do I always know when. Your going to be texting me. I feel your love so strong just before you send me a message


Because You take my breath away. Make may herat race and send volt or warm electricity through my body. And make me feel butterfly deep down in the very pit of my stomach.


I really appreciate you admire you respect you an most of all i love you with the love 


that comes once in. Life time.


Your the most amazing wife lover partner best friend there was ever made and I'm so proud that you are mine. You bring out the very best in me baby thanks for loving me like no one else can.

You complete me my love. Make me hole again. Without you i am depressed sad lonely lost and confused

i can't help it you make me so jealous. At times it drives me nuts. And you make me feel you so strong i can't stand being here with out you anymore. I need to have you here i want to please you and make you happy and feel the love that I have for you.

You make me feel so unreal. This love of ours is so extremely strong for one another. That's i have felt you holding me in your arms.

I've felt your kiss upon my lips.  I fell you 


warm and tender touch. And each and every day the strength grows stronger and more intense.


That i can't stand us being apart anymore. I need you i want you i crave you. I need to hear your voice and feel your touch your kiss and taste you're taste smell your sent.


See your beautiful face and body first hand. Hold you make love to you. Sweep you of your feet with this romance that i only know because of you.


I want to love you and make love to you till death Doo us part. And make the love keep growing deeper than anything else you have ever seen before.


The more I spend time with you the more stronger my love becomes for you. You 


can and only you can calm me when I'm upset.


Your the only one who complete me.


I love you baby and it tares me up when we fight. And become upset at one another. It just kills me when you get mad and leave me for hours i can't take it.


You know that I can't stay upset for long my love for you won't let me.

My passion for you is like nothing ever seen before.I adore you my love. Your rock my world.


You send chills all through me.

Your the first one who's ever been able to get through to my heart and soul. your the only one who has ever made me feel like I'm going to have to sit down before i fall 


you make me feel so week at my knees sometimes.


But all the census you toch on me you send through the sky. Making me feel your love and affection so strong at times i can't breathe. I have to close my eyes.

And my heart races out of control.


Your the best part of me.

Good i love making you short for  words.

I will always love you even after i die...


My love for you is


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 12, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


My love for you is eternal never ending infinity keeps going and growing deeper 


than anything even seen before. Stronger then the strongest hurricane winds.  

You have me knot knowing where i stop and you begin.  Growing deeper than the deepest ocean.

Stronger than the biggest tornado 🌪️. More passionate then the love songs and movies.

More emotional then emotions it's self.

I want to give you the best love that's ever been.

And baby you are driving me mad for you.


Alone here in the dark.


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 13, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


So many times I have sit alone, Here in the dark. With no one to talk to no one to turn 


to. Not only as am adult but as a child. I've been through so much horrid unspeakable tragedies in my life it's a wonder I'm still alive.


As a child at the age of 5 I was taught that life is horrible. You can't trust anyone. And that the grown-ups in your life hurt you the most. I was taught to take pain not to utter a word. Or I would not live to speak.


I was taught that men are monsters pig's. Who love to hurt woman and children alike. In spite of all the abuse I suffered every day by my baby sister and next door neighbour, and also my dad's best friend. I managed to never tell a sole till I became 16 and was moved away.


From being tied up and molested every day of my life having broom Handel's and 


knives and everything else taken to me. How was I to know this was not a normal life. I would return home to my sister's when they would get out of school they would both get me ready for bed.


Dad and mom would be working. They had no clue what hell I was going through. Me I was able to hide all the pain shut everything down and keep it all in. Scared to death if I told anyone that I would die and so would my family.


One day I decided enough was enough. I run away and hide in the woods by the banks of the river where some how I felt safe. I was able to cry there and let it all go while talking to God and asking him for the strength to go on.


I look up in to the sky as I watch the birds 


fly. As I say why do I have to be the one who served.

Why do I have to be strong and take on all this wrong. Then mom and dad find me I tell on the baby sitter and next door neighbour. But not dad's best friend. We move away.


I continue to struggle in and out of school fights after fights I would get in to. Hating my life wishing I was dead. I started going to counseling. And when I needed mom the most she would leave me never to return. She left me with my dad and brothers alone in the trailer. The only girl and dad's best friend still coming over.


Mom could not handle the guilt of what happened to me so she ran. I then go to help my teacher clean house. Never to return home again. I chose to live with 


Linda and John. here I was safe loved and cared for properly. Linda was the mother I never had. John was the father I never knew.


They helped me overcome most of my past and made me who I am today. I can never be perfect I make my mistakes. I make good and bad discussion. Put myself in harm's way at times just to feel some type of control in my life.


I have as a child hurt myself. So I didn't have to feel what I was feeling. As an adult I was Heald at gun point. By my first ex husband. He pulled the trigger but didn't Know how to take the gun off safety. Thrown around and hit on.


To the point my Dr was asking me if everything was ok at home. Of course I 


said yes I know first hand how to hide behind my mask. Then my second marriage. I was beatten Heald up by my throat. To the point I almost black out. I some how I managed to find the strength to knock him out and get myself and my children to safety.


Then I chose to turn to a woman. Who I picked up in Texas who would beat me with belts across my back to where the welts busted open and blood would come out. And then put cigarettes out on my face, back and neck. Because she would come home off her meds and strung out on drugs.


She also was drugging me with her medication I found out. When dad became concerned about me being so tired all the time. She told dad and Linda she was self 


medicating me. Not to worry. I was raped several times while homeless on the streets. where I then would move in with my boyfriend who almost kills me holding a gun to me asking if I was scared to die. Me bagging him to kill me took his power away so he put the gun away.


And turned to beating me. I then get away from him move in with dad get a 4th boyfriend who tried to kill himself so I kick him out. Dad is now drinking most the time and bitching at me and the boys nothing is ever good enough.


He's going to put us out with no where to go. The only good in my life is my new found love and my kids. And just the other day I find out my lover was cheating on me we had a big fight the first one since last year.



Then I turn to drugs to help me not feel not think of anything. I then find out that I have cancer in my bladder. on The 3 of this mo. Had to have surgery to remove this cancer but it's the kind that can return. So I have to go back every 2 to 3 moths for screening.


Well needless to say dad refunded to take me for my first 2 moth screening so I rescheduled then the dr sets it for another 3 moths away. Then he cancels and sets it even further away.

It seams like this world is out to get me no matter what I do.


My love of my life can't make it back home because we have no money to get her home. And the last 3 times I had the money. And sent it to here she chose to 


pay other bills so she says that's what she did and get our daughter birthday presents. Instead of coming home to me and our other children.


Now wanting to come back home again. Needing the funds once again. I tell her this time if I come up with the money to get her and our kids back home to me and she doesn't return this to will be the last. I will be completely through with her. But I know I can never leave her for my love for her is way to strong.

 


Most of all I miss your sweet caresses


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 16, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved



Good morning my beloved wife. I'm missing you so much. I can't wait till you come back home to me. This day our Hearts will be filled with glee.

I miss your smiling face. I miss your warm embrace.

I miss holding your hand, as we walked across the sand.

I miss your laughter, it's what brightens up each day.

I miss your voice, saying that you love me, and every things going to be ok.. The way We always did everything together. You and I fit together like 2 birds and a feather!

I miss your advice when your away. I miss you cheering me up on a gloomy day. I miss seeing the love through your dark brown eyes. Those eyes that know how to hypnotize.

I miss the glow of your face, when my love 


would show you grace. I miss you being here by my side. Sometimes I just want to crawl off and hide.

I missed the glistening of your eyes. Shining so bright I would become mesmerized! I miss the look upon your face, when you became overwhelmed with love's embrace.

I mess you sleeping in our bed. With your head upon my chest. Most of all I miss your sweet caressed!


This love i have for you is eternal never ending


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 16, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


I love you more than the flowers love the rain. More than the masochist that feeds 


on paine. I love you more than the fish love the sea.

More than the birds love to sing. I love you more than a child loves there mother.

More than a sister loves her brother.

I love you baby more than the heavens loves the stars. More than the moon light up the night.

Stronger than the sun shining it's brightest. I love you more than the the first time I've ever loved you before.


My love for you is deeper than the Grand canyon. Stronger than a cyclone. Wider than anything else you have ever seen.


More emotional then I have ever been. The most amazing thing i have ever endured. My love for you would over flow this hole entire world.


My love for you is patient. My love for you is kind. My love for you will never ever grow dim or die. And i will always stand here faithfully forever by your side.


I love you my beautiful wife of mine. I hope you release how much I love you.


In memory of my stepfather John Paul Hensler


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 16, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


You faced your life just like you faced your death! with strength, courage, and faith in our Lord.

You would always tell us to pray, for those who do us wrong.  And to kill them with our kindness and love.


You faced your cancer for many year's. You never let us see you shed a tear.. And you never showed an ounce of fear. You was always so loving sweet and kind.


when I lost you a peace of me died. And for months on end all I could do was sit and cry.

when pastor came to pray over you. He asked you  Brother John when its your time to go. Not when the docs say it is time. or when your family wants..


But when dose John Paul think he's ready to go home to see our Lord. Daddy got this biggest smile on his face. Ann held up his hand with 3 fingers raised. He said well I'm going to go home to be with my lord in 3 days. 


we all look at daddy in dismay. Said no it 


can't be your still way to healthy. Moma saying to daddy you can't leave me alone. As we all gathers around daddy for prayer. Over the next few days we watch him slipping further away.


Then on the 3 day to the exact second daddy told us all he was going to see the Lord !

Daddy gets this huge smile on his face. And tells us what he sees! I see Mommy Grace waiting for me Grandma and grandpa Hensler.. And all the family who had went before him.


Then such peace comes over him as he says and I see my Lord waiting for me with arms wide open. Then as Mommy held daddy's hand with her lips kissing his daddy took his Last gasping breath.  He left us so peaceful yet with a lot of 


emptiness.


Lust and desires


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 16, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


My love i lust after you. I have so many desires for you. I need you near me. Filling your skin touching mine.


I desire your lips on mine. You're smell. Your beauty beyond compare.

I long for your taste.


Is this desire for you to strong? Oh how i long for your brest to be agenst mine. Fell the heat of your body next to mine.


We both have lust and desires. Why don't 


you tell me what you have in mind.


I want to hold you. So close that are hearts start beating as one.. as our sous untwine making love.


All it takes is just one touch one warm embrace. And it sends our souls off to our lust and desires.


I long for us to walk together hand in hand the the oceans tide. Feet in the sand our prints we leve behind side by side.


I long to grab your waste pull you so close in to me. Kiss your neck your lips your brest.


And hold you in my sweet caressed.

As i lay there by your side your eyes Lock with mine. Lost deep within each other's 


souls.


Connection so deep. That the lust and desires begin to creep once again. There gose our souls making love out of control.


With deep love connection our heart minds and souls. And we give it to one another's lust and desires.

I can't wait to kiss your lips hold your body next to mine.And get lost in each other's eyes as our souls entwine .

And no one else can come close to taking your place.No one holds a candle to you my love

Your the only one who makes my life complete.


The Ohio river


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 16, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Oh how i remember how you once ran so deep and so blue. Beautiful and Crystal clean.

How as child i sat watching you change. And oh how it cause my little heart pain.

What i once admired all your beauty. Had turned to becoming dark brown and murky. No longer that beautiful Cristal clear blue that i once knew.

Oh what has this cruel world done to you. All the chemical and trash. Washing up on your river banks.

Oh who do people have to be so bitter to destroy such a beautiful river. Seeing all this trash makes me quiver.


I remember the bridge we use to walk across to get to go to town. Till the decided one day to blow it down.

Down in to your river bed it would fall.

Adding to the trash thrown in from above.

It's is so sad how they destroyed Ones beauty.. Today this beauty's unheard of. It seems like yesterday your beauty ran deep strong and wide.

Where as a kid i would sit and hide down by your beautiful river side.


I promise you


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 17, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Hunny baby love of my life my beautiful amazing wife. I hope you have the most amazing day today.


I hope your day is full of happyness,Joy.

And i hope you have, the over Wyoming very strong feeling of our love.And connection with each other.


And if your feeling down,that all you have to do. Is think about how much you are loved by me.I hope this always puts a smile back on your face.  

I hope that when you get flustered all you have to do is think about me.And my love and caring for you to help you calm down.


I pray your day brings you hope .And you also not only fell our love. But Gods love as well. Because without Gods love,our love would have never been found..


Love you my darling. I shore hope your day turns out swell.I promise you that i will be poring out my love for you.To you 


continuously non stop loving you.


And i will never stop praying for you. For your happyness, Your wellness, your safetiness your strength and dignity. To always contenue to be strong.


I pray for your safe return to me. When we can finally get you home. I pray for to you success. But most of all i think

God for giving me such and amazing, loving, caring, understanding, strong-willed, wife.

That i can have and to hold for the rest of my life.💕💞💗


The one place i want to be right now


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 17, 2021.  


© Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


One spot, I’ll wish to be right now is on the bed. With my head on your laps, as we gist.

Nothing beats the feeling. I get from spending my time with you. Because you are my everything.

It’s a blessing to have you as my lover, and I can’t even imagine how it will be without you.

Life is too crude but with someone special like you, every day of my life is beautiful.

I am grateful to have you here with me.I will always pray for that moment. That I’ll be the last person you will kiss goodnight. Cuddle at midnight when It’s cold. And wake up to a good morning hug.

I want to exist for your love because. Life has a different meaning with you in my life. I can’t wait to have you back officially home by my side.


When I kneel to pray, I ask the Almighty to shower his understandings on us.

Even when things seem unpromising. Always remember there is a beautiful future for us. I know I’ll always love and cherish you.

Because you’re one gift of nature in my life. I can’t describe what I feel for you.

I love you, but how can I prove what my heart feels for you? The feelings will never decrease, even if you can’t see it.l

I will wait for the day you realize that we have wasted so many precious times being apart. I love you baby 😘

The one spot i want to be right now, is by your side..


There is nothing in this world ? that can replace you!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 17, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Baby you're one of a kind. Perfect in every way for me. And i love having you as my wife.


Your strong will, to set out and conquer anything you set your mind to doing.


The way you always know just the right time to message me. It's like you have read my minded.


The perfect little things you say through out each day. Melts my heart and thanks my breath away.


And reassures me. That life will always turn out to be ok. And you always know just the right thing to say.



You brighten up each and every day.

Just to know you are mine. And your here to stay.


Nothing can even come close, to replacing you in my life. There is no other out there in this world.

That can even come close to the love that you hold.


You hold just for me. So much love that i overfloweth like a raging waterfall. The love for me pots out from you.


We are stuck to one another like super glue. Yet nother one of us really know what to do. For to us this time of love is new.


But i truly do know they there is nothing in 


this world that can replace you. Baby I'm so head over hills in love with you.


Depression


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 18, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Depression effects more people then you know. So you need to be gentle with your words don't you know.


Saying something in the wrong way.

Can cause a person who lives with depression dismay.


And a child to not want to go play. Even if you don't understand why. Please don't say things that can make another person cry.


Or even make them want to take there own life. By committing suicide.

They won't just come out and tell you why.


This depressions just causing them to want to give up and die.. Leaving there dear Loved ones behind to cry.


Oh there could have been many reasons why they choose to commit suicide. Even the angels in heaven break down and cry.


Yet the loved ones are left behind asking why. What was so horrible that you had to die. What caused you to take your own life.


No one but the one who has done the time. With depression will ever understand. The answers to the questions at hand.


We're never happy were always sad. Our days are always being bad. We may not look like we want to die. We may never even break down and cry.


This is what we with depression are good about. Hiding our feelings deep inside. And leveling our loved ones wondering why.


We don't really mean to cause you such strife.. This depressions running our lives. We can't help what we caus.

It's not like we can just switch it on and off.


Living life with depression is very tuff.

Exspechely when it's so bad at Times you want to give up.


I'm yours your mine till the 


end of time


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 20, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Your the apple of my eye. Your the breath i take. When i want to give up and die. Your the only reason that I'm still alive.


With out you i would have committed suicide. Your my life support. Without you nothing seems to work.

Your love is what keeps me going. Even when nothing else is showing.


The love that you have for me and i for you, is always glowing through.

You have no clue. What you mean to me. Your love praises through me stinger then the strongest bee sting.



You're the sunshine of my days. Your the resin our children still play. Your the happyness of our days.


I shore hope our love can continue to stand the test of time. Because with out i would truly die. And every day there will be tears in our children's eyes.


Only you can keep this life of mine from being dead. Only my love for you keeps the thoughts of suicide out of my head.


Every day i think God for you. And that you and i have said. That we will be side by side till the bitter sweet end.

I love you baby.


I'm here for you i never want our love life to end. I'm your your mine till the end of 


time.


Our love for one another will out last the end of time. We can't stop it on a dime..


In your eyes


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 20, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Baby when I look in your beautiful brown eyes i see forever.  When i look in to your eyes my body begins to shiver. 


Your touch means so much. You don't understand what it does for me. I can not explain to any other creature any other person any other soul.


The love that i feel and see in your eyes. 


It's just to hard to describe for another to understand. And comprehend. 


The love that i feel In my heart for you. When i see forever in your eyes the never ending breath thanking. 

Heart racing.  Forever love.


That's we only get the mighty gift from God above. The love that's unheard of. You can't describe it. You shore can not hide it.


And you can not try and fight it.  Because this love i see in your eyes. It has me hypnotized. Paralyzed with just one glimpse in to your eyes you have me mesmerized.


Because I see  forever in your eyes. I love seeing our entire future in your eyes.


Wide awake


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 20, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Wide awake brain racing. My head just keeps right on spacing. Anxiety sets in hells waiting around the bend.


Can't stand to be out in public places.

Seeing unfamiliar faces. Causing me to choke up and panic. This life with anxiety is just to frantic.


After all the abuse I've been through. It's very hard for me to survive. I just mostly stay in my room and hide. And try not to cry.


Unable to function out in real life. Yet no 


one understands what a person stuffing with anxiety hides deep down inside.


There is so much darkness. So much fright. Keeping them up most nights. Locked in there room all the time.


Wishing for a better life. One with less chaos and strife. Still all there worries they keep locked up inside..


Always winding if there is someone who is out there trying to harm them.

To cause the to keep wondering.


And always leaving them wide awake.. Praying to God there Soule he shall take. So they no longer have to live there lives as wide awake.


Heaven


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 20, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Bright blue sky. Golden Street. Given you everything you have ever needed. 

Cristal clear streams. Rainbow glisten through water filled sun beams.


Lions laying down with the labs. Oh isn't life in Heaven going to be so grand. With snow white sea sand gusting in The sun.


And listen to the beautiful music as the harps of the angels are being strummed. As i look from down here to above. I dream of my life in Heaven. And how much I'll be loved.


So much peace so much love. So much happiness to be aware of.

It's as if life in Heaven going to be unheard of. 


Golden gates a big beautiful mansion.

Why would anyone want to take Gods love for us for granted.  Never ending dinner table fit for a king.


While hearing the Harps Harold Angels sing.  Ow what beautiful music they will bring. 


When you finally make it to heaven and all the beauty you're eyes will see. They wiled animas tame..

To see it here on earth they would call you insane.


Oh what beauty Heaven will bring.  With 


my day to go sing with the angel's will be. One day i will finally get to see.


And oh what a glorious day this will be. When i finally step though Heaven's gates looking our God in the face. Not a worry on my mind left to race.


That's what Heaven's going to bring my way.


Our new Beginnings.


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 24, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


I love you baby can't wait to spend time with you! I should just be asleep right now. But I can't go to sleep. I'm sitting here thinking about everything that  hopend all 


this will be over soon, so we can get together our house and a family. You're my world everything to me I love you and the kids unconditionally!


I can't wait spend the rest of my life with you and our  children. Go to church pray together, worship God together be happy laugh together cry together. And grow as a family together and make our life better together.


I want us to alway go to Church each day it's open together. bec without God, we would never have been together. I want to hold you at night while we sleep together. Kiss you good night and good morning. 


I want to look in to your eye's and become lost, in amazement of your love for me.

I want to bring you lunch at work. Because 


your very special to me. I want to send you flowers and Bering you breakfast in bed.


I want to give you saten sheets for your bed to lay on. I want to be the shoulder for you to lean on. I have so much I want to be for you!  i want to be the one who makes you proud. The one who bring happiness and joy to your life.



I want to make each day for you brighter then the last.  I need you home with me.  So We can both be free from this pain. It's driving me insanın. I can't stand being without you any more. I pray to God every day to bring you walking through my door.


I got  to where when you get home We should be in our new house or picking it out. Just like I promise I would have done. 


I just hope you get home in. time to help me pick out the home.


God has been answering so many prayers. And I believe when he decides that it's our time to be together there you will be. Ill run up to you give you the Biggest smile and hug! then kiss your sweet tender lips. what an amazing day this Is going to be.


One of these days! We will have a hole book on our love and devotion to one another.

And the hole world will be reading our love letters and stories. I can't help to Wright to you in such detailed emotions.


For I'm afraid If I don't paint the picture of my love and affection for you. Then you will feal like it's just another love. And think you'll become tired of It. And We will 


grow apart. That's why I always let you know how much you mean to me. 


How much I love honer respect and adore you. Yes I'm Jellis as hell when it comes to you. But that's only because! I love you madly deeply appreciate your time that you give to me. And scared to death that you will find someone better then me!


You being so fare away Frome me I get my doubts about I my love for you and yours for me stronger. Rely stronger than any love you have felt  before. Will the longer we spend apart. Cause us to drift apart. Or continue to be blessed by God. and our love thrive like never before.


Will you one day finally Walk through my door..I know my love for you is stronger then I have ever know love to be.  And I 


feel your love stronger then I've ever felt any other lover before. I worry that sometimes you get your doubts about our love. and you stray away Frome me..


Try out new relationships. And that's why I go for long periods of time not hearing from you.

All kinds of things go racing through my mind during these times. I go in to my seperation anxiety so strong. That I say things out of pure fright.


All I know Is my love for you has and will only grow stronger. Deeper wider then any other love there is. I want to give to you Gods love. A love like no other heavenly love.  For God gave Us this love for one another for a reson. Maybe its to write and show other how they should they should  one another.



Maybe it to teach others how God loves, and they see his love through our love and come to him.

All I know is my love for you and our children Is unable to be explained. In to any words either of us can understand. 



I want to walk down the streets together holding one another's hands I love you baby. And I promise to always keep the Passion, Love, romance, comparison, Joy, And happiness alive in our relationship! As long as you will have me. I pray to God that it will be for the rest of my and your life.


If I live to be 102. I want you to live to be 103 because I don't want to face this world without you in my life ever. well I 


better let you go. Ive gone on and on about our love my love my feelings and emotions. Enough is enough. I love you more than you'll ever know my love. Good night sweetheart.


Everything about you is perfect.


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 26, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Good morning beautiful how was your night. Mine was restless without you by my side.

I can't eat. I can't sleep anymore. At night it's a constant toss and turn unable to relax.

Without you here by my side. All I feel like doing is stay in my room and hide.


I have no life without you here in it with me. My life is just one big empty emotional roller coaster ride. Filled with all the love for you that I can not give to you physically. Causing me to struggle internally.

When will the separation come to an end. Are we ever going to get enough money for us to be together again. Oh how I hope this day is waiting for Us just around the Bend. Because these days without you by me feel like a sin.

I long to feel your touch again. Your warm tinder lips pressed against mine. Your hands how they perfectly fit within mine. I miss your eyes your smile your face. Most of all I miss your voice saying I love you baby your the best thing that's ever happened to me.

The voice you have makes my heart race and takes my breath away. Everything 


about you to me is just perfect. I never what you to change. I want to keep you just the way you are because God made you perfect just for me.

You always show me unconditionally how much you love me. You always forgive me if or when I make you mad. And we never can stay mad at one another very long at all. Our love will withstand the hands of time.

When all other love has failed ours will still be standing strong. I will never stop telling you how much you mean to me. what I see in you Is beauty beyond compare inside and outside. God truly knew what he was doing when he made you just for me.

I'm so sorry that I'm the jealous type I've never been this way before. But I also sence jealousness in you to when it comes to me at times. Especially when it comes to having friends who are men. You 


tell me you would kill me if I try to be friends with a man.

That always brings a smile to my face to know ☺️ your just as jealous of me as I am of you! But I believe you are worse than I am. Because you are always wanting to know what I'm doing or what I'm in to. Well my love for you is so strong overwhelming response from way down within my soul.

Like a spiritual realm reborn again. You make me feel so alive within my soul. Something that I have not once ever came close to felling. In my hole entire life till you can in to my life. Showed me unconditionally love.

Unconditionally Carrying, romance, comparison, Joy, division. And the way you are doing is greatly appreciated. My love for you is constantly changing growing extremely intense strong electronic communications between our 


souls is so amazing.

I can't wait to hold you and make love to you for the fist time in years. To feel your touch again 😉. To hold your body tightly against mine. Kiss you good night sleep with you on my chest in my arms.

Look in to you beautiful stunning brown eyes my oh my what those eyes say and do to me. I want to give you breakfast In bed every morning with a kiss. I want to wait on you hand and foot. Ill probably spoil you so much your not going to know what to do.

But baby you deserve to be My Queen. And treated with respect. If anyone ever says disrespectful words to you I would truly have to do something. Because that's not right.

well I'm going to go before I cause myself to get angry just thinking about it. Love you baby ❣️😘 with every fibre optic nerve 


that flows through my body.


Your simply the Best.


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 29, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


You're the best baby. You truly are amazing. I love you baby more than anything.  I adore you worship the ground you walk on.


And I can't wait till I'm holding you tight in my arms kissing your lips 💋👄 and cuddling up to a good movie. Or just laying here looking in to your beautiful brown eyes and getting lost.


In your presence. I will have to apologize to you now. Because once you're home i 


won't be able to keep my eyes off of you.


I won't be able to keep my hands from touching your skin and tracing i love you baby on your skin.


My lips will have a hard time not kissing your lips all the time. My love for you going to be stronger than any thing you have ever been around in your life.


I hope you are ready to reserve all this love first hand that i have go you. I hope it's not going to be to much. For you to handle.

We rely have had a great relationship with barley any arguments. Just little ones that never last long. And I'm thankful for this.


My love for you is so very true. And stronger than any love i have ever known. I hope you feel the same way i do.



I wish you could feel my love the way i can your love.

I know you were going to text i got the feeling in the pit of my stomach again.



I love you so much baby. You have no idea. I wish you were here with me in my arms. Laying you head on my chest talking about our future my love.


I just can't believe it is almost over it's almost time for you to come home. We almost have everything we need. God is great to us.


We have him to think for our love unconditionally for one another. And for your safe travels home to me. I can not wait for you and our kids to pull up in the 


driveway.


You truly are the very best. I love you baby.



Midsummer night dreams!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 29, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Beach field vacations. Trying to make a new reputation. Going outside without hesitation.


Fire flies lighting up the mid sky. To the ground. Stars glisten star lit sky's ,while walking by moon light, across the warm sand.


Birds chirping they're happy songs from 


heaven above. This is what midsummer night dreams are made of.


Lovers walking hand and hand.

Shopping for engagement rings through windows. Beautiful weddings under gazebos ,along the sea shore or river banks.


I can't wait, for my midsummer night's dream to happen again. It's waiting for me just around the Bend..


Beach sunset beams, glisten through palm tree leaves. Bumble bees making hunny, glisten through the sun beams, like golden nuggets, just waiting to be picked.


Hunny suckle sent drowning hummingbirds in. Oh how beautiful the mid summer night ends.



You're love makes my heart leep for joy.


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 30, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved



You're love makes my heart leep for joy.


by Sandra Kay Johnson on June 30, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Baby I prayed for us and our kids. I love you. I'm missing you so much right now. I'm not able to sleep.Your constantly running though my mind. I can't stand the silent treatment for goshsakes.  



I don't know what i did to deserve you not talking to me. Not letting me know your home safe or not.


You never even let me know how our kids are and how to your day was. How is dad and please baby what ever you do don't break my heart.


Your the only one in this hole inter world that i have let in to my heart. That i trust

with my heart.You make my heart bounce for joy. The love i feel in my heart every time i think of us. And our love for one another.


My heart leaps for joy. I can't describe the ripples effect it has on the rest of my body.

But i can trey. It starts at my heart and over welling warm gentle joy and comfort 


glowing feeling comes over it.Then the electricity ,worm bolts of lightning ⚡.That runs thought my entire body.Taking my breath away. Heart ❤️ racing the pit of my stomach. At the very core become overwhelmed.


With emotional connection between the two of us. Just fluttering as if in on on huge rollercoaster ride it feels.

Leges become week. I start to feel like I'm floating in space 🌌. Yes I'm sitting 

perfectly firmly in on our bed.


But i feel like I'm floating on the clouds.

When i feel our love. I feel it from  all directions, poring in not one part  of me is in untouched.


I fell tingly sensation all over my body. Especially  just before you wake up to 


message me.  Or any time you going to message me i get this feeling.

You have not only thought me what love is.  


How o receive love and except love.  But you have also turned me in to purr love and devotion.  I can't stop coming up with ways that I'mgoing to show you romance. Passion love joy respect.


You just wait until your here. when you pull up I'll have a huge bouquet of peach 🍑 roses..With turquoise blue and white baby's breath. Just special for you.

And for our little queen and kings I'll have something special to. The beds going to be covered with roses.


I'm going to cater to your every need. I can't wait to massage your tired tense 


body. Bringing you in, to a complete stress free state.  

Your not going to have to do a thing. NOT EVEN WORK IF YOU DON'T WANT TO.

Have time off all the time you want.  

Will be going on vacation to the beach. 


Your favorite place to be. Will go visit mom in palm coast Florida.

Will walk Flagler beach down to Daytona beach. Lay and watch the sun rise and sun set.


I want to take you.  To all the most beautiful places on earth. There is that

you've never been before.


Take you on the pontoon boat ride. At   Burr oak lake in the summer during sun set.  And ride off in to the moon light shy.


I want to return during fall for another ride. So you can see all the beautiful coolers on the lake. As the trees amazing gorgeous beautiful coolers reflection off the water.

I want to hold your hand and walk on the sand. 


I want to kiss your lips 👄 under the moon light sky ,out on the lake.

I want to take you to the most romantic getaways. And fill your life with even more romance than i do now.


I want to pick you up and carry you when you to tired to walk. I want to snuggle up in Bead. To a romantic love movie.


And lay there in eachother's arms drifting off to sleep. I can't wait for this day to be.

Soon and very soon i have you home.


If you don't get scared again and not come.  If you don't come this time then i know that you have someone else besides me that you love  more.


And I'll just be poof gone just like i came in to your life. Because i can not take another baby I'm on my way home.


To complete silence for days on end. Then you never did leave. But say your almost here then tell me you never did leave.

I want proof  of y ou quitting your job ,to come back home. I want proof of your on the road. 


And on your way, every thing is packed up. The kids, clothes every thing and your coming home.

God here comes that feeling over my heart 💞💗❤️ again. And my breath just left. 


Felling the soul connection between us again.


The same feeling comes over me when we are at church worshipping our lord.

It's just in real.  Well I'm going to leave you go baby for now. But i could go on and on about us.  


What I'm am Going to do to you. For you when you get home. Sometimes I think my love is just way to much for you. To handle and that's why you did not come home.


You was not ready for the infinitying love.  Because you feel it like i do now.  But when we are together it will be 10 billion times stronger.


It will be like heaven on earth. I love you sweetheart. My Queen loving you comes 


easy. Not having you home comes hard.

But the absence has truly made our hearts grow stronger for one another. And our love to be mesmerizing.


Good night love. I can not wait it's almost here your almost on your way home to me. The pandemic is over.  Your dad has nanny care.

My life


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 3, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


My life is a never ending battle. Between good days and the bad.

Sometimes I'm kinda happy other times I'm sad. And that makes me very mad.

How can people hurt others Causing them to loss all there self esteem. How can they 


be so dam mean.

When i was a small little girl. My hole life was a giant til twirl. Some very bad mean. Took my life away from me. Oh why couldn't my mom and dad see.

What was being done to me.


And i finally got to have you here.


Flashbacks still come and go. Believe me it feels like walking life on death row. Constantly wonder are they going to come for me again.

Will these flashbacks ever come to an end. So my life can finally mend. I know that I'm a Survivor i did no sin.

And I'd be damned if i give up my fight for peace ☮️ love 💕 and happyness 😁..

The flashbacks so vivid. To where it's like I'm little again. Feeling all the torcher and pain again. Then i raise my hands and I'm 


grown again.

That's when new flashbacks begin. Different me all did me wrong. But as a child and as an adult. I messes up the heart mind and soul. And makes you feel so very low.

Take my heart it's yours


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 3, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Take my heart it's yours you founYou're simply amazing


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 3, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Hi my love i can not wait for you to return safely home to me This month.

I just can't stand another day without you 


here with me.


You truly do and have brought out the best in me. You have brought me to love myself. When i had no self love at all.


You have brought me closer to God when i thought there was no possible way i could get any closer then what i was.


You have shown me Gods answers to my prayers time and time again. You my love i promise that my love for you will never end.


Its only going to continue to grow stronger than any other you have known.


I can't believe how much you have changed my life for the better. In so many ways you have no idea the hell you pulled 


me out of with your love for me.


My love for you there is a bottomless pit to my heart full of nothing but never  ending love for you.  This love we share is just unreal.


I am so honoured and blessed to have such an amazing partner lover wife and best friend all wrapped up in 1 package and the only one who has ever touched my heart.


To open it up to love again has Ben you my love. I have you to think for everything i am right now today. This love feeling is so beautiful.


Extremely amazing absolutely purr love and affection. Your the best part of me that i never want to be with out.




I will love you forever sow you may never have to doubt my love for you. Because this i know it true God made you and only you just for me to love.

And me and only me for you to love.


I have not been able to think God enough for sending me you in to my life. And i probably never will stop thinking him for you because. I can't never have enough thanks to him for you.


Just like my love for you is never ending my thanks to God for you is never ending to. I love you so much baby. They say makes the absence makes a heart grows fonder. 


I guess God put this to the test when he 


sent me you. Because my heart only grows stronger an closer to you even though we have had to be apart.

I will love you for ever if you want me to.



Ever if you want me to. Is this what you want my love.  I hope so because that's what Iwant. You just simply amazing. have enough thanks to him for you.


Just like my love for you is never ending my thanks to God for you is never ending to. I love you so much baby. They say makes the absence makes a heart grows fonder. 


I guess God put this to the test when he sent me you. Because my heart only grows stronger an closer to you even though we have had to be apart.


I will love you for ever if you want me to. Is this what you want my love.  I hope so because that's what I want. You just simply amazing.


Left behind.


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 6, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Deeply falling in to depression. No one to turn to no where to go. Feeling lost and all alone. It's as if I've been left behind.

No one understands why or how I can feel this what at times. Because I'm never left without hearing from the love of my life.

They ask me why I feal as if I could die. Whey do you feel so left behind. They have no idea they are left in the blind.

Still leaving me feeling even more left 


behind.

Deeper into depression than ever before.

Wanting to give up yet still so very much in love. Seperation anxiety disorders kick in. Testing my Survivor instincts to it highest extent. Never knowing how I have over come!

Some Of the stupid things I have done. Yet my love to you keeps my Survivor instincts on high alerts. Making


it stronger then the my I want to give ups.

Causing me to fight to live. That's why I'm always feeling left behind. I'm always leaving you to wonder why. Why if I love you so much do I always feel left behind. And why can't you just break through this depression of mine!

So I no longer live my life feeling that I'm left behind!




What is hot summer nights love?


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 6, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Lost in our love deeper into the lust. Just one thing a hot summer night brings out at a nights end. One more night closer to my dreams coming true. That much closer to having you. and the mid summer nights will be full of our lust for one another together again.

Making love under a moon lit sky so beautiful you don want to ever close your eyes. For your lost in the beauty of the mid sumer night sky. With hearts full Of love leaving us both like we are floating around 


on clouds.

our kids summer nights are always hot and wild with love. That other's have never heard of.

We always give in to our lust for eachothers desires. Lost in the hot summer nights heat.

Passion and love struck! Not wanting it to stop. so more and more as each mid sumer night passes we get lost in the hot sumer nights love.


The distance makes our hearts and love grow stronger!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 8, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Baby I'm so in love with you and can't wait to see you with my eyes lost in your eyes 


and my thoughts lost in your thoughts.


I can't wait to kiss your lips again for the first time. It's going to be the best experience my heart has ever been through was falling in love and continuously loving you non stop.


My heart says with this wonderful over welling warm electricity through out it and my body.  Of love for you non stop.


My mind is never off you. I'm always loving you praying for you and our relationship and our kids.


Every time i see you chills run through. My body and i lose my breath. You and only


you have ever done this to me. 


And i just lose myself in all of your presents. When I'm with you there is no better place in this world i can ever be.


That's why I never want to be with out you. You make me love myself. You make me feel happy.


You make me feel better then i have ever felt before. Being with you i know that i can survive every thing I've been through.


Your my hereat my sole my life my beautiful amazing wife thanks for everything you have brought in to my life.


Your simply amazing. The best thing and person i have ever had. In my life and i think God every second of every day for you.


I will probably have to sit down before I fall when we kiss again. Because I'll become so week in my legs i won't be able to stand.


I definitely won't be able to catch my breath. And the Electricity that will be burning through my body. Is going to be over welling the love that we both share is just unreal.


And stronger now then it was 3 years ago when we first met. You have really stolen my heart right out of my chest and shown it how to love.

Thank you for being my wife lover partner best friend and never giving up on me.  Giving me the best love i have ever known. Felt before you have made my darkness turn in to light.


My black world turned into living color 


again when you came in toy life. My no existent don't what to live world. Come to pure unconditional love you baby forever andand always.


I am living in love because of you. Because o you i feel love unlike any other love out there. Because of you i feel more alive then i ever have been.


Because of you i can now feel gods love for me like i never thought was possible for me.


Because of you i can see all the beautiful coolers reflection and creation God made with amazement.


Your the best thing that ever happened to me and I will be.

Your truly amazing gorgeous beautiful 


wife. The best i could have ever asked for and more. Your evening i ever prayed for.


God answered everything i asked him for in a relationship when he made you perfectly for me.  Thanks baby for being the best part of me.


Your just simply amazing


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 8, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


I think about you every day.

And I want you to know.... You mean the world to me. The day that you stepped into my life. You changed it to something.


You give my life meaning and love. I don't deserve you at all.  Out of all the girls in 


the world you chose me.  

I don't know why you love me. You are better than me in every way, you care about me.


And try your best to cheer me up when I'm scared.. But i am glad you chose me as your girlfriend.


I may not be the 1st, person in your life you may not be my 1st.... But i do want to be your last.


If i where to lose you then i wouldn't matter in this world anymore. I wouldn't be happy ever again.


And i would never find someone as amazing as you. But i have you and i couldn't be more great full.


I love you from the bottom of my heart. Never think for one second that i don't love you, because I do love you.


Your just simply amazing, the best thing that ever happened to me. And I think God each and every second, of every day for making you mine.


I fell in love with all of you.


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 8, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


I fell in love with you all of you.

I didn't just fall in love with the best of you like. The way your eyes light up the room.

The way your laugh makes me smile.  The way your personality stands out.

The Way your smile gives me butterflies


Or the way your body movies.

I fell in love with all of you.

I fell in love with your scars.

The way you make sarcastic remarks.

The way you feel helpless at 2am in the morning.


The Way you cry about something from years ago. The way you can sometimes get angry. Or the way that you sometimes what to be alone.


I fell in love with all of you

I fell in love with the great in you, and the bad you see You're self.

But the bad you see in your self is the greatest that i see in you.

Because i love every part of you every bit. 





I want to give you everything you ever wanted and so much more


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 10, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


I want to give you everything. A work free life. Stress free life. The most love field life.

No money problems ever again all of this is just waiting for you around the Bend.  All you need to do is to get your ass home to me and take hold of my hand.

I'm going to give to you all the diamonds and Pearls gold jewelry.. The house that we will build and design together. Just 


they way you want it to be. 

I want it to be out in the country miles away from anyone else or anything. With it's own little lake we make with a big pitcher window in the kitchen and in our room that over looks the lake.


Have horses roaming the fields free. With a wrap around porch..

Never to let it go again. I want to keep you happy all the time. Giving you everything you have ever wanted in life.

I want to give to you a new car for every day of the week and every color of your choice. Any car or your choice.

I want to give to you our Owen beach house for going on vacation. You're Owen little private section. 

All the best in the world that you can possibly get i am going to make it yours.  You just wait and see. Mark my words.


You're going to have your beauty salon  with workers in it running it for you so you don't have to if you don't want to.

More money then you have ever seen or dreamed of. I'm going to be given you the life better than any Queen has ever had.



Because baby you deserve the best and only the best. We are going to have our own private jet to go places away when we want to.

A limo service for you when you want to be showered around. Our Owen ball  room for you to dance your own private dance instructor.

The most gorgeous swimming pool you could ever imagine. You're Owen tanning salon. You're own private gym.

You're own jacuzzi. You're Owen nail salon. This is everything I'm going to give 


to you and so much more.

I'm going to give to you your very own special really rose garden with nothing but erotic never seen before beautiful one of a kind Roses.

You just mark my words baby this is what I'm going to give to you. Why because you're mine and I'm yours.  And I'm romantic this way.

And i only want the very best for us onec you get home.  And the very best for our children.  They also will have everything they ever wanted and so much more. Not a worry in the world.


Love you baby just wanted to paint a picture of what is going to happen for you when you get home.

The gentle Giants at the ocean


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 11, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


They gracefully glide through the ocean. With Glee. These gentle Giants of the sea. Gliding through the Christel Blue water with such grace..

They allow you to swim with them and join them in there dance. For they are big but gentle. They protect you from the sharks if  they are around.

There songs they the sing so beautiful as they Skipp and hop of of the oceans glistening watchers. How beautiful they seem.

These gentle Giants of the ocean..

As the gracefully glide over the water and also dive. Making swimming look like an art. Dolphins dolphin's 🐬🐬🐬🐬🐬🐬🐬🐬🐬🐬🐬🐬🐬🐬🐬🐬🐬


And most of all i will never ever leave you;


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 14, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Why do i love you so much, because even though you do the things you do. You Also make me feel good. You have given me self love. You have given my life meaning. God put us together not because he wants us to fall apart.

He put us together because he made us perfect for each other.


He didn't put us together to never have hard times. He put us together because he made us perfect, to get one another through the hard times.


He  didn't put us together because we was mint to be with others. He put us together because we are mint to be with each other.


God answered every one of my prayers when he gave me you. But he never made me not to to get upset. Or jealous over you.

He made me this way to show you how much I truly appreciate love you adore you worship you. And respect you. And how much I want to be with you and only you.  


He made me this way because he wants you to know. That no matter what you do. There is always going to be me here, waiting for you to come home and be by my side.


That you don't have to be scared anymore of being left alone. Because you have the one who loves you for who you are. And 


forgiveness no matter what.


And to show you, that i will never ever walk out on you.Or leave you no matter what you say or do.  No matter how much youhurt me. I will always love you baby and forgive you. I'll always be proud of you. And most of all i will never ever leave you.

Even though they're miles apart!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 16, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


God baby I'm loving you but missing you like crazy right now. Want you so bad right now. Wish you was laying your head upon my chest. And drifting off to sleep as I'm tracing i love you baby on your skin. As i 


watch you peacefully sleeping like the angel laying in my arms.

The angel God himself sent to me..The one he made perfect just for me. I feel you so close at times it's as if you are in my arms laying upon my chest. I feel you so close i can feel your lips upon min..

It's as if our souls entwine in love with one another that they can feel one another. Even though they're miles apart.


Your still the one for me!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 17, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


I love you so much baby. You have no idea how much you are loved.I love you more and more every day. Just when i think there could have, Not been any  possible 


way, of waiting you more loving you more.


Needing you more. You prove me wrong, and my love grows stronger, my need for you growing deeper. And my wanting you become almost impossible to bare.


I think that in the past when you did not come home. It was because you were unsure about my love for you. You was having your doubts.


Because you have been hurt by the ones who you loved. In the past so much that it caused you to be scared. That my love would fail you as well.


But time and time again. No matter what you would do. No matter what happens i contenue to love you unconditionally.


I believe you have never been loved before. The way that you are loved  with me. And the reason you didn't come home was because you was scared. That the love may be to much or may fade away of become week or Dem.


But i have shown you time and time again that you're everything to me. And that my love is true and ginuwine. That it never will grow weeker or dimmer or fade away.


That no matter what you put me though or others say or do. My love for you only contenue's to grow stronger than any other love, you have ever know, deeper than anything else you have ever been through. And it's only getting stronger than ever.

Through all these challenging years. Yes i may have gotten upset and said things. 


That i didn't really mean to say out of jealousy. And being hurt myself by you. Even though it would have been something. To cause your lover's of the past to leave you alone and crush your heart.


I forever forgave you over and over again. My love stood strong. And i never once gave up on you. Or stopped loving you, praying for you or caring for you.


My love only grew stronger than any love i have ever seen before. Anything I've ever felt before. Anything I've ever heard of before. And just when i think that's it, there is no possible way. Our love can continue to grow any stronger. Or we can grow any closer than we are right now.  


You show me something new, something 


more mesmerizing. You touch my Soule so deeply with yours..My love for you contenue's to grow stronger than any other love out there.


And it just contenue's to grow stronger, boulder, deeper, and wider than any mountain sea.


Canyon stronger than any storm, Cyclone, or tornado. We  can withstand anything the world throws at us. And come out stronger in love, then we did before we went through the storm.  I love you baby can't wait to finally have you home.


 I promise I'm not going to be like the people in your past, that has hurt you so deeply and badly. That it made you scared to love again and be loved.

I promise you that my love for you it's 


100% ginuwine and true, and it's always going to grow stronger for you the more we are together.


I have never felt the love, i have for you with anyone else baby. Thank you for loving me, and never giving up on us. For always forgiving me, And understanding me, when i don't understand myself.




That's why I'm so deeply, madly insanely, vulgariously, passionately, romantically, unconditionally emotionally in love with you.

because without you i Had no love, no hope, no self love, self worth, and no self esteem


You truly are the best part of me.You truly do bring out the best in me. You brought me happyness where there was always sad. You brought to me light where there was always darkness.


You brought to me love where there was always pain, and you filled my soul up with joy when there was empty Ness.


Thanks for everything you truly are remarkable. Amazing and make me proud to be your wife, lover, partner and Best friend. I could have never picked a more perfect union then i have right now with you my love.


You are the one who makes my life have meaning, hopes and dreams.

Your the one who has shown me what love is.



You have shown me that I can love myself. I can believe in myself.makes my life have meaning, hopes and dreams.

Your the one who has shown me what love is.


You have shown me that I can love myself. I can believe in myself. You have shown me that I am worth something in your eyes.


Your the one who thought me how to love and how to be loved. How to except love, how to understand love.

Then she sends me her picture.


And My response to it was. 


You still take my breath away from me, and send the very pit of my stomach the 


most amazing feeling there is.


Your the one i want to wake up to every morning.  Your the one i want to kiss goodnight every evening.

Your the one who i want to spend the rest of my life with.The more time and years that go by. The more shore i am that your the one for me baby.I am so truly honored, and blessed to have you, as my lover, partner, best friend and wife. Your truly amazing!




Prayer for straight


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 18, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Dear father who art in heaven please here our call. As we all stand together praying for the family with lost loved ones. From this tragedy.

We pray for them to have the strength they need to get them trough there loss and pain. Farther please wrap your arms around each and every one of those. Who's lost there loved one..

Help guide them through there tragic time there facing right now. Wrap your arms around round them help them stand. Continue to love them through there loss.

Hear us lord as we all come together here and pray this hour. The sweet hours of prayer. There is nothing more powerful than a prayer. And we want to build a wall around each and every one who lost loved one in this horrific tragic


event. A wall so strong and true that 


Saiten himself can't get through.

In Jesus precious name we can me together and pray amen.


I Was lost and alone but then you came along!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 25, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


I was so lost and all alone. Then you my love came along. You brought me out of the deposit depression. By showing me I was Worth someone's attention.


The smile on your face Pierce's my soul. As if I sow the face of an angle.


lost in love all alone wating for the day I finally get to see you and shower you with 


my never ending love.

As I lay here alone in this king size bed. wishing you were here. or I where there to help you through out the days when you come home worn out to rub your aching feet and treat you like the queen you are.


Till the day we get to be together I will be there waiting for you. my love. My Queen my everything.


You're the air that I breathe. You're eyes are the glistening Ray's of sun that keeps my days bright beautiful and worm. You're smile takes my breath away. So angelic and full of love. For my darling it's only you that I think about. I adore you my beautiful queen my one and only. my Love. I'll end this now. good morning my beautiful queen my everything.



Our love is like a rainbow you can never find the end


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 25, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Or love is like a rainbow you can never find the end. because the truth is a rainbow gose full circle it has no ENd.

Baby I love you madly my love for you in kind gentle and strong. I will never allow you to feel like you're losing me.

Because that will never be. I ant going to lye I can't live without you. It's killing me that we are so far apart.

But in spite of the distance between us our love counties to grow extremely strong. I love you more than anything more than the are that I breath.


Thank you baby for always loving me.


It seems like yesterday you were here


by Sandra Kay Johnson on July 29, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


It seams like yesterday you were here.

Just yesterday I was shedding grief's tears.  It's hard to remember that you are gone because the memories in my heart still linger on.


  Thought time passes by nothing here has changed. we just no longer hear you call our names.


you where my sister my very best friend.

I always live my life like you will be waiting 


for me just around the other bend.



But not the other Bend never comes. Because you my sister is flying with the snow wight doves in heaven with the angels looking down on us from up above. I love you Sissy I miss you so. 


Kimberly Smith you may be gone from sight but you will always live on in our hearts and the great memories you left behind for us. 


  no more calls from you no more laughs. you always knew how to have a blast.

You truly are the best


by Sandra Kay Johnson on August 12, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights 


reserved


I'm here baby loving you praying for you praying for the kids praying for our relationship to continue to grow stronger closer and our love to continue to grow stronger. I always pray for us to have forgiveness, and understanding, trust and loyalty.


Strength and hope. I love you sweetheart. I pray for you to always have peace of mind, for you to feel the love that I have for you. The way that i feel the love you have for me.


For you to always know, that no matter what you are the most amazing, wonderful, gorgeous best wife, lover, partner and best friend that i could ever have hoped for in my life.



You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the only person who competes me. You're the only one who brings out the very best in me.


You have show me love like no other has ever came close to showing me. In you i find strength when there was none, hope when all my hope was gone. Self love where there was never before.


You have made me do much better than I could ever imagine. Without you I was nothing, i had nothing. With you i am the richest person in the world. With you i have everything.I have ever hope for, everything I have ever wanted, every thing i have ever prayed for, and so so much more. You're the best part of me. I love the way i am with you.


I hate what i become without you. With you you bring out the very best in me. And i don't ever want to lose you baby. Or i never want to take you for granted.

You deserve the very best in this world.

And God knows, that I'm so far from being the very best.


But i can promise you. That as long as you are mine. I will always love you unconditionally, and non stop. Like no other has ever loved you before. And i Will Always be my very best for you. And do my very best for you.


Because I love, honer, and respect you for who you are, the you that I came to love, and adore. The you that I feel madly in love with. You're the best wife, lover, partner, and best friend. That I have ever wanted.  Every thing i have ever prayed for, 


and so much more.Thanks for loving me like no other has ever loved me before, for bringing out the very best in me and teaching me what it really feels like to really I'm here baby loving you praying for you praying for the kids praying for our relationship to continue to grow stronger closer and our love to continue to grow stronger. I always pray for us to have forgiveness and understanding trust a d loyalty.


Strength and hope. I love you sweetheart. I pray for you to always have peace of mind for you to feel the love that I have for you the way that i feel the love you have for me.


For you to always know that no matter what you are the most amazing wonderful gorgeous best wife lover partner and best 


friend that i could ever have hoped for in my life.what you are the most amazing wonderful gorgeous best wife lover partner and best friend that i could ever have hoped for in my life.


You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the only person who competes me. You're the only one who brings out the very best in me.


You have show me love like no other has ever came close to showing me. In you i find strength when there was none hope will all my hope was gone. Self love where there was never before.


You have made me do much better than I could ever imagine. Without you I was nothing i have nothing. With you i am the richest person in the world. With you i 


have everything I have ever hope for everything I have ever wanted every thing i have ever prayed for and so so much more. You're the best part of me i love the way i am with you.what you are the most amazing wonderful gorgeous best wife lover partner and best friend that i could ever have hoped for in my life.


You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the only person who competes me. You're the only one who brings out the very best in me.


You have show me love like no other has ever came close to showing me. In you i find strength when there was none hope will all my hope was gone. Self love where there was never before.


You have made me do much better than I 


could ever imagine. Without you I was nothing i have nothing. With you i am the richest person in the world. With you i have everything I have ever hope for everything I have ever wanted every thing i have ever prayed for and so so much more. You're the best part of me i love the way i am with you.


what you are the most amazing wonderful gorgeous best wife lover partner and best friend that i could ever have hoped for in my life.


You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the only person who competes me. You're the only one who brings out the very best in me.


You have show me love like no other has ever came close to showing me. In you i 


find strength when there was none hope will all my hope was gone. Self love where there was never before.


You have made me do much better than I could ever imagine. Without you I was nothing i have nothing. With you i am the richest person in the world. With you i have everything I have ever hope for everything I have ever wanted every thing i have ever prayed for and so so much more. You're the best part of me i love the way i am with you.I hate what i become without you. With you you bring out the very best in me. And i don't ever want to lose you baby. Or i never want to take you for granted.

You deserve the very best in this world.

And God knows that I'm so far from being the very best.


But i can promise you that as long as you are mine i will always love you unconditionally and non stop like no other has ever loved you before. And i Will Always be my very best for you. And do my very best for you.


Because I love honer and respect you for who you are the you that I came to love and adore the you that I feel madly in love with. You're the best wife lover partner and best friend that I have ever wanted every thing i have ever prayed for and so much more.Thanks for loving me like no other has ever loved me before, for bringing out the very best in me. And teaching me what it really feels like, to really truly be in true love. And thank you for teaching me how to love myself. So that I can give to you the unconditional love you deserve.


You're the very best and i think God for you each and every second of every day. I truly appreciate that you are mine. And I am so very honored be the one who calls you mine. I could never find anyone else that completes me. And makes me hole, and feel so good the way that you do.

I'm so in love with you, and my love for you changes each and every second of every day. It keeps growing stronger, deeper, more humble, more romantic, more affectionately, more loyal, more kind, more compassionately then ever before.


Just when I think it could not be any better than it is right now. You show me that it's always going to be 10, 0000 times better than before, with each passing second of each passing day.  You're so sweet, loving kind, and affectionate. And i worship everything about you.



I love everything about you. I love everything about us. I could never have a more perfect union, a more perfect partner, a more perfect lover, more perfect wife, best friend than i have in you.


I love you my Queen, your love amazes me. Thank you for being the very best lover, partner, wife, bestfriend than i have in you.


I love you my Queen, your love amazes me. Thank you for being the very best lover, partner, wife, best friend that I could ever have hoped for.  Be in true love with. And thank you for teaching me, how to love myself. So that I can give to you the unconditional love you deserve.


You're the very best! And i think God for 


you each and every second of every day that I have you. I truly appreciate that you are mine, and I am so very honored to call you mine. I could never find anyone else, that completes me, and makes me hole, and feel so good, the way that you do.

I'm so in love with you. And my love for you changes each and every second of every day. It keeps growing stronger, deeper, More humble, more romantic , More affectionately, more loyal, more kind, and more compassionately then ever before.


Just when I think it could not be any better than it is right now. You show me that it's always going to be 10, 0000 time's. Better than before. With each passing second of each passing day.  You're so sweet, loving, kind, and affectionate. And i worship everything about you.



I love everything about you, i love everything about us. I could never have a more perfect union, a more perfect partner, a more perfect lover, more perfect wife, best friend than i have in you. I love you my Queen your love amazes me. Thank you for being the very best lover, partner, wife, best friend that I could ever have hoped for.


You truly are the verybest lover, partner, wife, best friend that I could ever have hoped for.


You truly are the very best.


I'm so blessed


by Sandra Kay Johnson on August 26, 


2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Im so in love with this beautiful woman who says she is mine her name starts with an J and ends with a S and she is the center of my hole world.

My beautiful amazing wife thanks for everything you do for me and our relationship and future and our kids.

I could not have found a more loving, compassionate, caring amazing, gorgeous, beautiful lover, partner, best friend.

And wife as i have in you your the absolute best thing that has ever came in to my life.

I'm so blessed to have you and my wife.


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Only God knows the extent of our love


by Sandra Kay Johnson on September 12, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Only God knows how much love and compassion we each have for each other.


And that one day, soon, he will unite our bodies and mind and souls. He will guide or relationship and love as he always has.


And come together like he always had plans for us before time.

Through God's hands, his guidance, his love, he sent you to me from heaven above.


Even though  that we could be thousands 


of miles apart every day, the closer our hearts become as one because God made you just for me



I know beyond the shadow of a doubt,that you are my heart  and soul without a doubt.


When God gave you more amazing than the sun.  All it took was a look at you and my world , as I knew it, came all undone


Before having you, the weather was always bad. Now that I have you, we fit in as if we were a single hole because you are the other half of my soul.

You complete me and you make a hole.


And I can't help but shine with love, happiness, joy and laughter.  From that day on and each and every day here after.



You are very special to me.  You have turned me into this very loving passionate romantic woman that I never knew.


Thank you my love, you will always be the best part of me.  I'm so in love with you.  Just thinking of you makes my heart race sends  my stomach to that of a butterfly.


And very honored to have you in my life as my wife.  My beloved, amazing, wonderful, beautiful wife of mine.  I will love you beyond the end of time.

Your love is everything i have alway been looking for!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on September 19, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved



Your the love that i've alway been  looking for my whole entire life. Thank you for believing in me and loving me.  


Even when im being an ass and jealous, im only trying to protect you from the scumbags out there. Because I love you baby so much,more than you will ever know.


Your always going to be the center of my life my world. My love for you will never grow dim. Its only going to grow deeper than you will ever know, and stronger than you will be able to handel.


You will never be unloved,unwanted for


a second in your life with me. I will be true, honest,respectful and romantic and  loving 


to you for our whole entire life together.


I will always talk to you. So we can work things out,and never leave you. For your my other half of my soule. My only concern is that you will get scared of my love for you.


And think its going to end like your past. And leave me before you even get to be with me. I cant wait for the day you can come home, and we can get to be together in person.


I need you physically, i need your kiss, your touch your physical love.

I need to look into your beautiful brown eyes that i love so much.The eyes are the window to the soul. And your the other half of my soul. And when i look in your eyes.



My entire world flashes before me. And i see ,everything i was, evething i have done become. And everything i will become and be.  


As long as you keep me.  And never stop wanting me and loving me. I promise I will love you better now than i ever have before. And tomorrow ill love you more and better than I do today.


I will treat you like you deserve,like you want you want to be , like my queen that you are. I will never disrespect you.And if i do,i hope you let me know. So that I can make things right with you,and make you feel better.


I don't want to ever see you cry. I don't ever want to leave you feeling unwanted and 


unloved.


I want to make you feel like you have never ever felt before. The love that i have for you is more then this world can handel or hold.



I think you love me the same way..

I want to be the one who rocks your world. Be the one who you have never and will never want to leave.


I want to be the one who you long to be with. The touch that drives you wiled for more.


I want to be your very first true love, and your very last. I want to have each second of every day with you.Feel like we are falling in love again every time we see 


each other, Or Feel and hear each other's voice.. The one you long to be with.


Everything you have ever wanted, everything you crave,in a lover,partner wife and best friend. The companion you can confined in and trust.


The very last thought you have ,every time you have a thought. I want it about me. Us i want you to be happy All the time.


And i so feel our love your love. You never can make me feel,the same way you have the fist time we met.


The way i feel for you now, will be different than you make me feel tomorrow morning. Because you're love is always stronger for  me, each and every time we spend together.I want to be the one,who makes 


your worst day turn in to your best day. I want to drive you wiled, and make you feel like you have never been made to feel before in your entire life.


The one who you could never want to leave or be with out.


Because I promise that you will be the one, who i want and need ,and ill crave you more than anything you can ever emagin. Ill never let you down or leave you.


Because I need you. I need you  now more than i needed you before we met. And ill need your More in a second. Than i need you now,and tomorrow i will need you ,want you and crave you more then then i do now.


I want to be the only thought you think 


about,because you are you only thought i ever think about and much much more.I promise to always make you feel, like your the only thing, I have ever wanted and more.


Im so proud of you. More and more than i was before, and you will always be the one who has rocks my world. The first time I've ever felt love was you.


And I promise you will be the very last love. That i feel in my lifetime, and yours i i want to be your last.


I love you baby your the very best. To me and your the most amazing person who has ever been in my life.


Ill end this now because its almost 800 words long. And i can go on and on about 


what I want to be for you,and what i won't to be for you. And give to you, than anyone else has ever been, or done and loved you.


By the time i stop this text it will be 1,000 words long. Because all i want, all i do, all i think about. Is you being withe you and loving you. 


And wanting to be with you. Ok my love ill let you go. I hope this makes you feel the way i wanted it to.  And make you want me, to be with me here even more.


My best part me,my wife, my heart my soul. I love you. Message me when you wake up. Please text me baby.


Come to me i long for you. I miss you when you're away i crave you. I love you. I pray for you our kids our love and future, 


to continue to grow stronger than any other thing we have ever had.


I will end this with a kiss,hug see and lots and lots of love.They say silence is Golden,

I believe it is true,

Because in that Golden silence,

my thoughts occur of you.


You are the flame in my candle

that lights the darkness of my room,

You are the scented flowers

that makes my heart full bloom.


You are the butterflies

that flicker in my stomach all day long,

When I know I will be holding you

before my day is done.


You are the stars that shimmer and shine,

You light up the skies above


In this Golden silence

it's truly you I love.


You are the thunder of the night,

your lightning strikes whenever,

Into my soul that makes me whole,

and excites my heart forever.You are my paradise, my oceans wide,

My mountains standing tall,

So in this Golden Silence

I love you most of all.

The sunshine appears to be brighter.

My heart feels a bit lighter.


More beautiful are the flowers appearing.

This new feeling my soul is also sharing.


The mornings have now grown cheerful.

Every moment seems to be more colorful.


Like the darkness of the night is torn,


It feels like all my pains are gone.


What is this new feeling

That I feel every day but I'm still healing?


Standing by on this adorable shore,

I've realized that I seriously love you more...How do I describe

My love for you?

How can I explain

That this is true?


Love is a funny thing

We'll never understand,

But hear this truth ring:

I'm in love with you.


These butterflies,

Shy smiles,

Late nights.

Thoughts are constantly


About you.


I can't tell you

All the times

This heart beats faster,

Even when you're out of view.


Always in my thoughts,

Always in my dreams.

A life without you would

Tear me apart at the seams.


It's you who keeps me up all night

And gets me through the dayIt seems to me that there

Is only one thing left to say.


I've said it already,

But to make sure you know it's true,

I'll say how I feel:

I'm completely in love with you.



When I first saw you,

I saw perfection.


When I got to know you,

I saw pain.


When I started loving you,

I saw strength.


Now...all that I see

Is what means everything to me.


What I see

Is the strength to go on.


What I see

Is the courage to do anything.


What I see

Is the love to be around anyone.



What I see

Is everything I need.


Love is


by Sandra Kay Johnson on September 19, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Love is patient, love is kind.

You should never let your love go blind


Love is being there for someone though think and through thin.

And standing beside them to the bitter end


Twin flame ?


by Sandra Kay Johnson on September 20, 


2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


The other half of my sole, with beauty un told.


I am you you are me we are one.


by Sandra Kay Johnson on September 20, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Been up since we talked last. I think you have something you don't want me to know, about something that you have done. Something you don't know how to tell me about. 


Because your afraid of losing me. I know 


what I is already.


I think that your physically emotionally and spiritually worn out and you need to rest.


As well and you emotionally worn out. You want to be with me, but you need to work on yourself. Right now and you really don't know how to tell me all of this.

I believe you also want to be financially stable yourself before coming home.


My wife's response:


I’m so fucking worn out and really need to work out on myself before I can come be with you.....I’ve been scared to tell you all this because I love you and don’t want to lose you

But I know I’ll get better and overcome everything that I’m battling, I’ll be okay 


baby😘


There also is someone else involved with you. You have been doing, that you're also scared to tell me that has happened between you. And this person because you are afraid to lose me over it.

But truth is i want a honest up front relationship.  One where we confide in one another's,and work things out together. BECAUSE you are my other half of my soul my twin flame.


I feel what you feel, fear what you fear. I know, and fell if you're with someone else in all ways. 


And l know this because im more progressed then you. More grounded in our twin flame journey. With our higher power.



I can sometimes hear your thoughts. And know what you're thinking or doing. Im shore you don't know much. ABOUT this twin flame journey or relationship.


But im heare for you. Becomes of God has made me and you as a hole, one complete soul. We share but 2 separate identities but yet we our one.I know you're feeling very distant,and away from me right now. You almost feel as you have lost me already. But baby im a lover not a runner.


The reason why you feel this why. Is because you are scared of this connection between us. And the powerful love we share.  You have not gotten over your past, Painful relationship.


And your afraid your going to lose me like 


you lost him. But im here because a higher power placed me here. I'm here because God made me just for you and only you. 


Im here for you no matter what if you have cheated on me. I would forgive you ,as long as we are upfront and honest with one another.


Yes it would hurt me. But my love for you, and our love for each other is stronger than

any other,love put there. Its made to withstand anything and everything we must go through.


Truth is this is not our fist or our last gernney together. There has been many lifetimes were we have been together before but in different bodies as different people.


I love you baby im here for you and no matter how tuff or rough our journey may become.  We are stronger together then we are apart.


I already know about everything you have done. Everything that you are going through. And im ready prepared to help you work on it your not alone.


Im here for you im here to help you heal form all your past and present hurt.


And im here for you to never ever leve you im here for you till the very end of time.


Baby im here for you because its my destiny our destiny. Our path this is our one and only purpose in this life we our the love that helps heal this world we are Gods love and we can and will become 


one with each other again. 


I promise to help you break free from all your hurt and pain your going through. And your self trust baby. You need to work on yourself and become one with yourself and hole as an individual before we can get back to being us and one hole as a soule. 


I promise once we get you back on track in this journey you will feel me again.  You will feel our strength and love so strong again.

I am here for you till the end of time. I love you i can write a book for you about us but ill end it here for now. Just always remember.

When all seems as if you are lost and lonely then you're not. I can fell your lonely Ness and loss and im always right there 


with you baby bay your side porrring my love out to you im and there even though you can't see le or feel me because your hurt and loss is way to strong right now.


Once we heal you and set you free you will be able to feel me with you again. And feel our love as strong as i fo at times. And then you will be ready to come home to me abd ve with me fore the rest of this life time till we have to start our journey all over again.


But who knows this may be our last one together we maybe ready for our eternity love and journey to last a lifetime. All i know is i needed to let you know i know everything.I feel every thing you're going through that your not alone because I'm right there with you.

I see you in my dreams i hold you in my 


dreams and thoughts.

And kiss your lips.


When im awake all i do is think of you and love you even though it hurts like hell because i can feel your pain, And hurt your going through.

I will not run away from it i will face this head on and help you heal because I am you love your strength your rock your best friend who you can confined in.


I am you you are me and we are one.



love your strength your rock your best friend who you can confined in.


I am you you are me and we are one.


The way you make me feel!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on September 21, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


The words you bring to me with your love and the things you make me feel with our love drives me wild.


Making me crave you're presents, with me so intensely strong. I can not help but to scream out you're name! And wish you to be here, and my wish is as if its already come true. That'd  how strongly im feeling you right now.  You feel so good baby.


I love the feelings you make me feel. These feelings you make me feel, is more amazing than any feeling ive ever felt 


before. 

I feel your love extremely strong right now. I can feel how much you are wanting to be with me right now.


God im feeling you so extremely strong right now. You're taking my breath away from me. And giving me butterflies way down deep, in my very pit of my stomach, as if my soul is making mad passionate love together. More intensity than ever right now.

My wife's response

🥰🥰

I’ve been in love with your writing from the first day


My response


They are straight from my heart and soul.


My wife

❤️

Did you just write them?

Me

There always upfront and honest


My wife

Yeah baby

Me


Yes baby i just wrote them for you.


My wife

Wow❤️


Thanks so much dear


Me

Your welcome my love. Just emagin how its going to feel when your finlay in my arms. Or when  we make love for the first 


time. With our eyes and soul

My wife


I’m feeling this way too baby

It’s be great baby 👍

I’ll be going to bed soon because I’m already drifting to sleep 😴


Me


The things and feelings you bring over me is just unreal


My wife

Rem I love you always ❤️❤️😘


Me

How can i forget when, i feel you so strongly with me all the time, with our souls entwined

With non stop, love making feelings you 


give me all the time.


How could love ever be so blind. Who would ever what to forget, such a beautiful and most amazing love making. Love felling is more then ive ever imagined it would be. When i found true love soulmates and twin flame souls.


Good night love sweet dreams remember that im always right there with you holding you tight with my soul.


A soul connection like your's and mine!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on September 21, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Baby lets stay with our souls entwined. Making love together all the time. Don't let them stop promise me this.

Because i want this feeling all the time. Leave our souls have there time. For this is the time we need to help each other heal, deep down inside wounds, that nothing else can heal.

And all the love our souls entwined, brings to us each and every time, our love is at its prime.


This is one step we become to being as one. And another step closer we become, as being physically together all the time.

That's the closest we have become. To feeling and knowing the existent of our love. So far, i never have taken one thing for granted.

I never once let my love stray anyway, nor never would i ever astray. Because i would 


never hurt you is such a way.

Let our souls mingle and have some fun, as we drift off to sleep🛌 in each other's hearts. ❤️

Let my herat ❣️speak to your heart ❣️while we lay peacefully sleeping in each other's♥️.

Let me let it be known to you, that there is not one second, that my soul is not making love to you. And i can always feel when your souls making love to mine to.

Nothing can ever be more beautiful in this life. Then having a soul connection like the ones that are between yours and mine. 

You tell me you loved me but it's no longer the truth!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on September 23, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved



You told me that you loved me I thought it was true. But then after a few years you showed me another side of you.

The side I would have never of thought that would ever come from you.

You said that you loved me and real me in. I gave you my heart but you tore it apart from way down within.


You told me you wanted to be with me. But each and every time you have the perfect chance. You run away from me with every chance.

You're only killing me with each and every thing you do. Over and over again that's the truth.

You cheat on me and you tell me lies to. In each and every word that comes to.

You tell me you love me but you show me the the other side of you. The one that 


doesn't love me anymore. The one that only wats to lose me

The one that takes from me no matter how bad I'm in need. And don't care about me having to live on the street.

You tell me you love me but then you go out with men. And bring them home with you just to rip my heart out again


I tell you I love you and that's the truth the sadist part about is I would have given my life for you.You tell me you love me just to get me close. Then you continue to be the one who hurts me the most. To bring me closer just to slice my throat.

And cut my heart out. Just so you can know. You're slowly killing my heart and my soul.

By saying that you love me when you know it's a lie and a joke. I hope that tomorrow morning brig's me my grave.


So I no longer have to deal with this pain. And never again will I ever have to feel this way. All your doing is driving me insane.


Trust is the Foundation to love


by Sandra Kay Johnson on October 7, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Before you can love truly love you must have trust trust is the foundation for love.


To trust one is love love is trust.


But without the two together you can never have a good everlasting love....


Without self trust first and self love first. You can't know how to really love and 


accept love.


When you finally have all theses things.

love and trust in yourself. Love and trust in your true love


Then you're always going to have

problems and keep losing the one that you love


Don't get me wrong no relationship is perfect.



They all have there little ups and downs. But when you have self trust and self love, and trust and love your partner.



Then you finally find that real love you have been searching for, all your life and 


been missing that pure true unconditional love.


The love that God himself made for us.


And once you get to this point. You will never think anything is more beautiful than your love.


You're going to have little things that's bother each other at times.You're going to have dislikes and misunderstanding


But if you have that self trust, and self love, and that same trust and love in your partner. Then there is nothing, that you could go through in this world, that can destroy your love for one another.

For Trusting first, Builds The strong foundation for your Love to sand on.


Because to Trust someone, is to love someone

Trust is What makes Love strong.


It's not worth your life!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on October 13, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Don't let things get to you so deeply!

Let things go the more you dwell on them, the worse they will become.


Its not worth staying sad over thing's, and keep replaying them in your mind. The more you ponder on them. The deeper in depression, you fall.


It's not worth it life's to short, move on.



Don't let it get you so


depressed, that you do something you can't take back. It's not worth it. Don't let it get you so down, that you want to take your own life!


It's not worth it. There is always something better around the bend. Nothing is worth someone's life to come to an end. Stand tall stay strong keep your head held high.


It's not worth it to dwell on the past, move on and let it go. Start looking forward stop looking back. There is nothing there that will bring you peace. It's not worth it..


What ever hurt you or whoever has hurt you! Let it go!You can move on you can be 


strong. There will be others who will come along that's a little better then the last.


So don't keep dwelling on your past, It's not worth it!


Author notes


This is what I would say to some one who is suffering from past relationships.

Or something that was done wrong to them.


Author notes


This is what I would say to some one who is suffering from past relationships.

Or something that was done wrong to them.


Never give up


by Sandra Kay Johnson on October 14, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Never give up keep your head Heald high! It's going to be ok you're going to survive.. Nothing is so bad to continue to go on being sad. And allow it to destroy what happens you have.

Do not hold on to regrets. It's not worth it all it causes you is hurt. Causing you pain over and over again. Don't let some one who has done you wrong.

Take away all your happiness and joy. Never give up. Keep going strong. Nothing is worth being depressed all the time. Let it go leave it behind.

If you don't let it go.Then all your going to 


find is darkness, Lonely ness, and being sad and all alone.

Stay strong keep your head held up high. Never give up every thing is going to be fine.

If you just leave all your past behind. And never give up.



Your a cold heartless son of a bitch!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on October 14, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


You're a cold heartless son of a bitch ,for doing her the way that you did. She would have done anything for you.


But you play here like, she's some puppet on a string. That you can toss aside ,for a while then , whenever you decide  You want her come pick her back and.


And start the emotional abuse all over. There is just one thing ,about those puppets on a string.


Eventually there strings become week. And they finally have the strength to break free.

You can only do some one wrong so many times, before there love for you slowly beings to wither A way and die. There will become a time to where,She will not have a felling, what so ever for you,she will just move on. She is strong she can win this fight to our come.


All the damage to her you have done. She 


will come out of this with her head held high.  But all you will live with.Is all the pain your always lady feeling inside untill the Very day you die!


Author notes


I wrote this pome to the yong man who broke my best friend heat today.


She Lays on the bed patiently waiting;


by Sandra Kay Johnson on October 22, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


She lays on the bed gazing out the window. Patiently waiting, for the glimpse of the one she loves.



He just plays with her yong heart. Taring it apart. Each and every time. He promise her hill come. But he never comes.


Hands on her head, lost in her thoughts. Scared to death of what's coming up next. She carries his child.


But he gives her none of his time. He just comes by, every once and a while. When it's convenient for him. Or when he wants something.


Leaving her heat broken. Promises crushed every time. Wondering why, he doesn't love her the same.


With that sad, depressed look on her face. While the tears go pouring

down her face. Wondering if love, will ever 


come her way to stay.


Left wondering, what she had ever done wrong. For him to treat her this way. Always letting her down, causing her to always Ware a frown.


Crying all day long. And all night long each and every day. She can't even listen to her music playlist anymore And enjoy the words that they play.


Every thing that once gave her joy,

and brought a smile to her face. Now just keeps reminding her of the pain. So she can't bring, a small to her face anymore.


Because of the heartless man of a whore. That only thinks of himself, his wants and needs, and desires. That thinks


of himself, his wants and needs, and desires. That thinks nothing about, the one who is caring his child.


As she sits and cries and wonders why. Why dose he lie, and make her cry. If he truly cares. And loves her the way that he says.


How can he case her so much pain. What did she ever do. For him to treat her in such a horrible way.


All she ever did, was show him the utmost love and respect. For him, just to treat her with total disrespect. He said he's becoming open. And honest with everyone and everything.


But yet he's so selfish, childish, extremely dishonest to her. Ripping her heart out. 


And leaving her insecure. Making her think bad about herself.Thinking she never going to be good enough, for nothing or no one else. Taring down her self-esteem, making her wonder. IF her life will ever be important enough for anybody.


Author notes


Written about my Best friend and what she is being put through.


My Dearest Love


by Sandra Kay Johnson on October 22, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


My Dearest Jones,

I just want to make sure that you know. 


That i love you too the moon and back. My love countries to flourish.


As if it was still the first time, we've ever set eyes on each other. You still make me feel like no one else, has ever made me feel. And each and every single second ,of every day.


You find new ways to make me, fall deeper in love with you. Than i ever imagined possible.


Just when I think it could never be any better ,than we have it right now. You do something new.


Something different sometimes special. That touches my heart right through to my very soul.


With just one special little words. Or line, you would just send me out of nowhere. Saying that I'm your world, or that I'm the very best that's ever been.



You my love are very extremely special, and precious to me. I hold you close to my heart. At all times and never one second that goes by.


I'm not poring out to you all of my love, Heart, and Soul. And i promise you this love, and affection i have for you.


Will never change ,will never grow dim. But like our love for each other. It's only going to flourish. And grow stronger than ever.


I can't get enough of you. I have to have you with me All the time. I crave 


everything about you.


You're smile, laughtouch, smell your loving warm embrace. Those beautiful brown sparkling eyes, of yours sparkle and shine ,brighter than the sun.


You're face  so beautiful lit up ,with the love you have for me. These are just a few little things ,that I crave and miss. Each and every time ,you have to be away from me.



You're angelic beauty is beyond compare. None other can ever come close to your Beauty. It's a beauty beyond compare.


You mean so very much to me. You're the only one I hold so dear. I'm always becoming lost in your beauty.



Not of the physical beauty you behold.

But your eternal beauty ,that  you with hold within your heart, pure as gold and you soul.The love you show me. Is beyond any other love there ever was, ever is and ever could become.


Thank you my beloved wonderful, amazing, beautiful wife. For always giving me the purest form of love. From heaven above.


Author notes


I wrote this pome to my wife in a text just second before coming up with the contest topic. This is what made me choose the topic



Nothing really Matters anyway!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on October 24, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


And it doesn't change anything. BECAUSE right now, everything is at an all time high with me right now.


My PTSD is running over me. And kicking me in my guts, over and over again.


My depression is the highest. It's ever been before. And just keeps getting worse.


My anxiety is so high, it's driving me insane. And making me, want to crawl into 


a bottomless pit. And just stay there until I die.



My separation anxiety, has never been so bad before in my life. And each and every single second, of every day. That goes by l. That she can't be home by my side. Just makes it worse.


My Adult personality dissociation disorder. Is more than it's ever been before. Shutting me down.

Taking my feelings away from me. And making me to where i don't give a fuck, anymore. About anything, so strong that nothing matters to me anymore.


It's so strong right now, that all I feel is completely empty numb, meaning less. It doesn't matter, who tells me that I'm loved 


and wanted and cared about.


Because these dam disabilities take over, and when they do. It's out of my hands and control.

For however long they decide to stay active and take hold.


So please don't forget about me, that you came to care about and love. She is still within me fighting to survive.Trying to override, the diseases that sometimes take over my life. As if those ones were not enough. God added Bladder cancer to my list.


All alone at the Dr to get the final results. Lowe grade state 1 All alone again. In the hospital having surgery to have it removed. But still that's not 100%.


Because it's the kind that can come back and likes to. Continues pain full bladder screens to go through. Every 2 months. Every time I'm still all alone.


Have degenerative disc disorder extremes. Having surgery on my neck to replace the vertebrate. With 2 steel plates and screws in place.


All alone again without a Trac off someone who cares. Taking care of myself the best way that I can. Then once again become diagnosed with something else new.

Neuropathy found in both of my arms. As well as my legs too. Onec again facing everything. Completely all alone. It has Become so bad, that my arms are so painful and become completely numb without worrying.



Making me constantly drop things without any worrying.

But wait, that's not all there is still more to come. Now my back is all messed up needing surgery.


To my spine to get electrical wires implanted and runran, in and up through my spine. And having a stimulation device.Implantation within my hip muscle. Still there is no one who I can turn to.


Yet constantly getting new and more depressing. Now my knees are no longer any good. Needing surgery to replace them both. But wait there is even more that's to come.

My feet bones are deteriorating away. But this time there is nothing they can do for them.


So eventually I'll become wheelchair bound.


These are my truthful painful reality facts, that i have to face all alone always. So please don't forget me the way I was. The me that you got to know and love.



Somewhere deep down inside. That me is still in there, trying to fight to survive.


Author notes


This is the story of my life now. And all my diagnosis and treatment and surgery's. And everything that i face alone day by day.


You bastard you bastard you!


by Sandra Kay Johnson on October 24, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved


Hay man i mean come the fuck on.

Each and every god dam fucking time you do this shit to her.

Acting like you just can't get enough of her. And that you're completely and madly head over heels in love with her.

Get her hopes and dreams up on cloud 9.

The bam you reach in your pocket and pull out your knife.

Stabbing her heart over 10, 000 times.

You have no heart for real for real.

You don't know what it is, to really truly love someone and care.

For if you did, and those words, you told her was true. You would never ever keep repeating. The cycle over and over again.

Killing her little by little bit. More each and 


every time. When you think your needs, and what are better. And hers is not worth


wasting you're time.

If i where there, or if you where very close by. I would take that knife, of your's. That's always stabbing her heart.

And cut off your nuts, and shuve them right down you're fucking throat.


Author notes


Another writteg to the peace of shit yong man who keeps doing my best friend wrong over and over again.

Your all i care about.


by Sandra Kay Johnson on December 27, 2021.  © Sandra Johnson, All rights reserved



Your all i Care about your all that i love and your all that i want.

Your my best friend my best amazing spectacular luxurious passionate lover wife and partner i could ever asked for.

I really appreciate you baby More than you know. I may not show it All the time. 

Because i become hurt and get upset. But i do i never stopped caring about you and the way you feel.

I never stop loving you unconditionally always non stop.

I never stop caring about you or your feelings.


And you know that I'm sorry for everything that I have done. I get hurt bad 😞 then i what to make you feel the hurt that you have made me feel.

So i say and do things that i don't mean. 



We both do this to each other.


And we need to work on not doing theses things to each other.

I admit that I have done things that have hurt you. And i am truly sorry 😔

And i promise you that i will do my best to not hurt you again..

But if i do please 🥺 I'm only human I'm not perfect by all means in any way shape or forme.

.

We all make our mistakes. And i have been working on this now for quite awhile.

An been doing the best i can. I need you to meat me half way here and us working together instead of agents each other..

You have been here with me for a few years now.

And we have had many great memories 


and time together.

A lot more than the bad times we have had.

Everything and every one is trying to tare us and take us apart.

And remember the promise when made to each other.

No matter whathappened. No matter how hard it gets. No matter what is thrown our way

We will not give up because our love for each other is stronger than anything this world can put us though.

.

You make me happy. You make me sad you drive me nuts and mad and insane and over bored at times.

But only you are capable of doing these things. And that's what I love about you.

I love you when you are happy with me. I love you when you are sad i love you when 


you are mad at me. I love you when you are nuts mad at me and what to kill me i love you when you are over bored insanely mad at me and what nothing else to do with me.

I will always love you. I will always be there for you. I will alwayssupport you and always appreciate you. I will always believe in you and have faith and hope in you.

I will always find trust in you. I will never stop loving you unconditionally always or forgiving you.

You have taught me. How to love my self and what love is. And you have shown me what love is supposed to be.

Your the best part of me and sometimes the worst part of me you bring out.

But for the most part you always have brought out the best in me.

You are the only one who can put a smile 


on my face.

And have me stupidly looking at my phone smiling the biggest most intense smile i ever had before.Just because you have message me. Or i am going back through our memories.

You're the best and you always will be the best...

No one vin this would or even heaven above can hold a candle to you no one can be as wonderful amazing spectacular luxurious beautiful passionate living kind and caring as you are to me.

And this is also why i love you so much and care about you.

I want to thank you baby for being my best friend my love of my life my heart my partner my wife and my hole entire world.

I would never have it any other way.

Even when we are driving each other mad i can't help it but to want to grab you by 


your little ass pull you in close to me And start kissing you passionately.

And look in to your beautiful amazing spectacular luxurious brown eyes.

And become lost so lost the the world around me ceased to Exist i can't wait to have my baby back again. Love you sweet heart your still the love of my life my entire world reveals around you still 






AND EVEN AFTER ALL THESE YEARS YEARS YOU  STILL  MAKE ME FEEL THE SAME WAY 
.
My love I just want to let you know that you're still my hole entire world and you still drive me madly and deeply in love with you..  

And bring the most amazing wonderful love and joy affection romance and happiness in to my life each and every second of every day that goes by the I'm getting to still be that special someone in your heart and life that gets to call you mine 

Three is not 1 second of any day that you're not in my thoughts or on my mind and you never seas to amaze me with all your smarts talents and skills   

I'm just as proud to have you still as being mine after all these years as I was the first time you came to me and sent your little friend request and all you did way was the only 👋 send me a waving hard and out the signal word Hello   

From that moment on you owned the keys to my heart and my hole world turned around 


It went for complete and total cold and darkness to being exciting full of love and life for the very first time in my life and your still the one who makes my me feel this way and always when I look at you or hear your voice 
.
..you take my breath away still and over welling intense strong electronic butterfly joke through my stomach turn down deep in my pelvic you made me feel that way from the first Hallo and still it's been a little bit over 4 years now and this has never changed
..

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