Beautifully Broken Read Count : 23

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I am beautifully broken, tragically twisted
Suffering silently -begging for forgiveness
For something that made me so different
From other little girls who smiled, & giggled
 
For they hadn't yet lost their innocence.
I was only 3, too young to remember?
Yet too old now to forget the horrible things
He says he didn't do to me . 
But I know and he knows and God knows too.
The "Ugly" he left in me... inside my closet with all my teddy bears . 
The monster he was & is & will always be 
The Boogeyman in my grown-up dreams .

Ive selfishly tried so many times to kill that evil thing He left inside..  the little girl I used to be.

Beaten broken black & blue .
Never let him see me cry not one time.

Ive grown up so alone hating every part of myself. Moody and withdrawn 
I've never married or lived on my own.. 
Abusive relationships apparently
 feels like home to me.
According to a doctor who recognized my inner agony.  
Oh if I could only go back   
Rewind the tick tock quickness of fleeting time ..

Maybe I could finally get some relief
If only I had stabbed him in his sleep 
Before he had a chance to kill me 
Over again, and over again

Everytime,  my reflection in the  mirror 
Taunts what's left of me 

© Kimberly S Wenz 7/18/2022





Comments

  • Kate Bridgite

    Kate Bridgite

    i hope the reflection on the mirror not taunt you but remind you of the fight you've fought,to be sane,to be here and present i hope that little girl closes her eyes and forgoves the world for the pain inside i hope she realises the power she holds now and the love she emits❤️

    Jul 18, 2022

  • Kimberly Wenz

    Kimberly Wenz

    God Bless you and thank you for saying that. Im one week out of another abusive relationship (7 years ) and im trying but i was feeling down this morning and just wrote that poem. its therapeutic for me. Thank you so so very much! i needed that and youre so right. thank you and God bless you!

    Jul 18, 2022

  • I like it!

    Jul 23, 2022

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