Category : Diary/Journal

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Do you know what it feels like to feel no hope to feel the lining in your very core is ripped , feel shattered , broken? Do you? Do you know what it feels like to try to keep tht demon from coming out cuz shes so tired of being hurt , and rejected and misunderstood? Do you? Do you know w how hard it is to come out alive when ure soul is in pieces and you don't even care to find them.. That feeling when you're rejected and you know that the only thing you've ever been good at is fucking shit up. To feel you're worthless pos in everybody's eyes?? To feel all alone in a room full of people? To wanna get outside but yet can't face people? To wanting somebody to hold you but the next just feel like get the fuck off me?? To give up?? Knowing they know how much they are hurting you and they don't care?? Knowing that they were your world but u didn't even really exist to them?? To walk away knowing if you do you're gonna die but if you stay you're gonna die a different way? To give up on love? To ask  What the fuck was I thinking? To know once I walk out tht door , I'm loosing a part of me tht I'll never see again? are you Tired of crying?so I ask him I'd  This  what you want ?? Tears coming creating river of black across my cheeks and lips, You got it , you've destroyed my very being, I'm bout to drive right over the side, no brakes, six feet down ain't so far, I'm already alone..do you know how it feels to be silently screaming I love you,show me tht you care and breaking every minute they don't? Can you relate at all?? I can.. I can.. o God I can .. it hurts..