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People say chin up
But I just feel like giving up
People say smile and it will all go away
But I feel like crying each day

Everything takes effort to do
This constant pain is so hard to live through
Lye in bed and see the day dawning 
Hate myself for waking up that morning

I know I need help and I know I need support
don't wanna spend my life feeling this way, it's just to short
But I just can't seem to speak out
Say what this feelings all about

Even if I did tell someone what could they do?
I don't think they could fix this, do you?
I'm so sick and tired of feeling this way
I want to smile and laugh for real and be happy each and every day

There's sometimes in the day when I forget about it all
When I smile and laugh, but when I remember it's like a ten thousand foot fall
Do you know what its like for your eye's to constantly sting
Do you know what it's like to be happy and at the same time feel nothing

I don't think I could end it without living the rest of my life
See my mind and body shudders when I think of picking up a knife
But I really don't feel like I can carry on this way
Feeling so low and empty each and everyday

It's so hard for me to admit to myself exactly what's wrong
Hard for me to show myself that I'm not that strong
This idea of happiness, you may say I'm a little obsessed
But I think right now I finally see.... I'm depressed