Category : Poems

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When life brings me to my knees there is only two choices. I could stay down and give up or I could do what I always do and get back up pick myself up and start it all over again. I don't need to be saved or fixed but I do want to be respected and understood I'm not going to worry myself over things I can't control. People see me smile and hear my laughter and think everything is just a scattered and some days are okay but them days when I'm sad or struggling they don't see past my eyes to understand the pain permeating my soul. I got this I figure it out even when I have no idea what the f*** to do to be honest that's how I feel most of the time. It's hard keeping it together when all you want to do is Fall apart. I'll cry in the shower scream loudly when I'm by myself just because I can because it calms me somehow. I've given up following rules and make my own choices these days. Sometimes you see me and I look put together but in reality I'm a whirlwind of a beautiful mess. I don't apologize for who I am. I'm just doing the best I can. I look for the good people and the light. Yep I'm going to be fine I always am for now that will have to be enough I'll keep my hope for better days I can and I will because I always do