Category : Poems

Sub Category : N/A

oddly enough
your name is the only eligible thing i can write in cursive 
whenever i stop by the gas station to get a soda
it's dr. pepper im pulling out of the cooler 
out of habit from constantly getting you one
our pictures still cover the wall at the head of my bed
making it difficult not to see you in my dreams 
the leaves seem to mimic you whispering my name as they rustle in the wind 
but then again
when i finish writing your name i crumble the piece of paper and throw it angrily into the bin
before i leave the gas station i put the dr. pepper back and grab a water instead 
after staring at our pictures a moment longer i begin stripping them from the wall as tears fill my eyes
when the leaves grow louder than a whisper i stomp on them until my feet ache
oddly enough
when you left you refused to take your ghost with you
you left me alone with the memories
i was left alone with the heartache 
crumbling on the floor of the bathroom doesn't comfort me as much as your arms used to 
there's a huge gapping hole in my chest
reminding me my heart still belongs to you
reminding me that because of this, i can't move forward 
i can't even breathe 
emptiness never caused such pain before