Category : Poems

Sub Category : N/A

You smelled like stale beer, full flavored cigarettes, old spice and used books. Your voice gave way to an accent I knew well. One I had grown to love. The way you stretched out your O's in a tone that revealed your were many miles from home. Your sentences came together like the lyrics of the songs I thought only I loved, but you loved them too. You laid next to me on a mattress in an empty apartment while music streamed from my phone, humming words that breathed life into my broken soul. As the tears began to fall you called me sniffles with a giggle that made my pain for once bearable. I knew you couldn't stay. You wrapped me into your arms inhaling the scent of my shampoo and sang quietly along with the choruses that had  made me who I was. You were different. You mirrored who I was. The angle of your hips as you stood looking from the door way, the way you feet barley lifted off the ground as you walked towards me. The feel of your hands entangled in my messy curls. You saw me unlike anyone had ever saw me. You were it, the person who I had searched years for and I found you in the most unlikely of places. And then it happened. The demons appeared. They came spilling out of your mouth like snakes, quickly and fierce and just as fast as they came they were gone again. Something so small for you consumed my every fiber. You unknowingly broke a heart that had been locked away for years. You tore into my very existence and you planted something that was to viscous to ever be pulled up. And still I held out hope, scared, crying, angry and confused I couldn't walk away. I clung to the parts of you I had fallen in love with. I allowed you to fill the rips that you made within me. And then just as sudden as the demons came and left so did you. I was left alone, in darkness you had created to fight off an evil I didn't understand. I was a fleeting adventure in your otherwise simple life. Left behind to fend for myself in the vast unknown. Not able to forget the smallest detail about you, not able to move past the shadows you washed me in. Unable to forgive you but unwilling to let go of a love so strange and unexpected. A piece of you lives within me now, it creeps out of the trees at night, I see it in the dim lights of serviced stations locking up until morning, I close my eyes and you're there and when morning comes your gone again. You haunt the corners of my soul I couldn't help but let you into. And still I don't regret letting you in. I love you through the pain that you caused me, and for that I will never forgive you.