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𝓔𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂 𝓵𝓲𝓽𝓽𝓵𝓮 𝔀𝓱𝓲𝓽𝓮 𝓵𝓲𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓽𝓸𝓵𝓭 𝓶𝓮
𝓔𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂 𝓼𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓵𝓮 𝓹𝓻𝓸𝓶𝓲𝓼𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮
𝓔𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓘 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓭𝓲𝓭 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓪 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽𝓵𝓮𝓼𝓼 𝓳𝓸𝓴𝓮. 

𝓦𝓮 𝓷𝓸𝓽 𝓸𝓷𝓵𝔂 𝓼𝓱𝓪𝓻𝓮𝓭 𝓫𝓸𝓷𝓭𝓼, 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝔀𝓮 𝓼𝓱𝓪𝓻𝓮𝓭 𝓫𝓵𝓸𝓸𝓭
𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝓻𝓪𝔂𝓮𝓭 𝓶𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽'𝓼 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓶𝓪𝓴𝓮𝓼 𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓫𝓵𝓸𝓸𝓭 𝓻𝓾𝓷 𝓬𝓸𝓵𝓭. 
𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓵𝓲𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝓶𝔂 𝓯𝓪𝓬𝓮, 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓸𝓵𝓭 𝓶𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓬𝓪𝓻𝓮𝓭. 𝓦𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓽𝓻𝓾𝓽𝓱 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓭𝓲𝓭𝓷'𝓽 𝓰𝓲𝓿𝓮 𝓪 𝓭𝓪𝓶𝓷. 
𝓘 𝓱𝓸𝓹𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓼𝓮 𝓵𝓲𝓮𝓼 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓼𝔀𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓾𝓹 𝓸𝓷𝓮 𝓭𝓪𝔂. 𝓘 𝓱𝓸𝓹𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾'𝓵𝓵 𝓻𝓮𝓶𝓮𝓶𝓫𝓮𝓻 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓸𝓯 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓾𝓵𝓵𝓼𝓱𝓲𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓹𝓾𝓽 𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱. 𝓘 𝓱𝓸𝓹𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓻𝓮𝓶𝓮𝓶𝓫𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓲𝓽 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓪 𝓯𝓪𝓶𝓲𝓵𝔂. 𝓗𝓪𝓿𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓪 𝓼𝓲𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓻. 𝓑𝓮𝓬𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾'𝓻𝓮 𝓷𝓸𝓽 𝓶𝔂 𝓫𝓵𝓸𝓸𝓭 𝓪𝓷𝔂𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮. 

𝓐𝓵𝓵 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮𝓼 𝓘 𝓹𝓾𝓽 𝓶𝔂 𝓽𝓻𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓲𝓷 𝔂𝓸𝓾. 𝓑𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓭 𝓲𝓷 𝔂𝓸𝓾. 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓫𝓮𝓽𝓻𝓪𝔂𝓮𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓭. 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓯𝓾𝓬𝓴𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓾𝓹, 𝓷𝓸𝓽 𝓶𝓮. 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓭𝓲𝓭. 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝔀𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝓸𝓯𝓯 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓼𝓹𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓵𝓲𝓮𝓼 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓬𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓭 𝔀𝓸𝓵𝓯 𝓸𝓷 𝓶𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓹𝓮𝓸𝓹𝓵𝓮 𝔀𝓱𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓭 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓬𝓪𝓻𝓮𝓭 𝓪𝓫𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾. 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝔀𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝓸𝓯𝓯 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓪𝓷 𝓪𝓼𝓼𝓱𝓸𝓵𝓮 𝔀𝓱𝓸 𝓸𝓷𝓵𝔂 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓶𝓸𝓷𝓮𝔂 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓭𝓪𝓶𝓷 𝓪𝓼𝓼. 𝓦𝓪𝓵𝓴𝓮𝓭 𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓸𝓯 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓵𝓮𝓯𝓽 𝓶𝓮 𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷. 𝓝𝓸𝓽 𝓸𝓷𝓬𝓮 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓽𝔀𝓲𝓬𝓮. 𝓣𝔀𝓸 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮𝓼 𝓽𝓸𝓸 𝓶𝓪𝓷𝔂. 𝓑𝓾𝓽 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓼𝓽 𝓸𝓯 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓱𝓪𝓭 𝓪 𝓬𝓱𝓲𝓵𝓭. 𝓐 𝓭𝓪𝓶𝓷 𝓸𝓷𝓮 𝔂𝓮𝓪𝓻 𝓸𝓵𝓭 𝓫𝓪𝓫𝔂 𝓫𝓸𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓼𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓶𝓮𝓪𝓷𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝔀𝓸𝓻𝓵𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝔀𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝓸𝓯𝓯 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓵𝓮𝓯𝓽 𝓱𝓲𝓶. 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓼𝓪𝓲𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓭 𝓱𝓲𝓶 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓪 𝓵𝓲𝓮. 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓬𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭𝓷'𝓽 𝓯𝓪𝓬𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓸𝔀𝓷 𝓬𝓱𝓲𝓵𝓭 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓱𝓮 𝓱𝓾𝓰𝓰𝓮𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾, 𝔀𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭𝓷'𝓽 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓽𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓱𝓲𝓶 𝓰𝓸𝓸𝓭𝓫𝔂𝓮. 𝓘 𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽 𝓽𝓸 𝓪𝓼𝓴 𝔂𝓸𝓾, 𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓾𝓬𝓴 𝓭𝓸 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓬𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓼𝓮𝓵𝓯 𝓪 𝓶𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻? 𝓗𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓱𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓬𝓪𝓷 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓸𝓷 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓽𝔀𝓸 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓽 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓪𝓫𝓪𝓷𝓭𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓬𝓱𝓲𝓵𝓭? 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓼𝓪𝓲𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝔀𝓪𝓼𝓷'𝓽 𝓰𝓸𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓸 𝓯𝓸𝓵𝓵𝓸𝔀 𝓲𝓷 𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓶𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻'𝓼 𝓯𝓸𝓸𝓽𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓹𝓼. 𝓑𝓾𝓽 𝓵𝓸𝓸𝓴 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓭𝓲𝓭. 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓭𝓲𝓭 𝓮𝔁𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓵𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽. 𝓨𝓸𝓾'𝓻𝓮 𝓼𝓮𝓵𝓯𝓲𝓼𝓱. 𝓗𝓸𝔀 𝓬𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓫𝓮 𝓬𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓮𝓭 𝓪 𝓶𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓲𝓯 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓬𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓪𝓫𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓫𝓪𝓫𝔂? 𝓣𝓱𝓪𝓽'𝓼 𝓸𝓷𝓮 𝓼𝓸𝓻𝓻𝔂 𝓪𝓼𝓼 𝓶𝓪𝓶𝓪. 𝓑𝓮𝓵𝓲𝓮𝓿𝓮 𝓶𝓮 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓘 𝓼𝓪𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓫𝓮𝓬𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓴𝓷𝓮𝔀 𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓶𝓸𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓪𝓼. 𝓢𝓱𝓮 𝓱𝓪𝓭 𝓵𝓮𝓯𝓽 𝓾𝓼 𝓽𝓸𝓸. 𝓗𝓸𝔀 𝓬𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓫𝓮 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓸 𝓽𝓪𝓴𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓼𝓪𝓶𝓮 𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓹𝓼 𝓼𝓱𝓮 𝓽𝓸𝓸𝓴? 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓷𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓽𝓸𝓸𝓴 𝓲𝓷𝓽𝓸 𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓼𝓲𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷 𝓪𝓫𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓬𝓱𝓲𝓵𝓭. 𝓦𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓱𝓮 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓼𝓲𝓬𝓴, 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝔀𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾? 𝓦𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓱𝓮 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓻𝓮𝓯𝓾𝓼𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓸 𝓮𝓪𝓽, 𝓬𝓻𝔂𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓲𝓷 𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓼𝓵𝓮𝓮𝓹 𝓲𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓶𝓲𝓭𝓭𝓵𝓮 𝓸𝓯 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓷𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽. 𝓦𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝔀𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾? 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝔀𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓷'𝓽 𝓯𝓾𝓬𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮! 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝔀𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓷'𝓽 𝓯𝓾𝓬𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓱𝓮 𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓭𝓮𝓭 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓶𝓸𝓼𝓽! 
𝓔𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔀𝓮 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓱𝓪𝓭... 𝓔𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔀𝓮 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓪𝓼... 
𝓞𝓾𝓻 𝓼𝓲𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓱𝓸𝓸𝓭... 𝓘𝓼 𝓭𝓮𝓪𝓭... 
𝓞𝓾𝓻 𝓽𝓻𝓾𝓼𝓽... 𝓘𝓼 𝓭𝓮𝓪𝓭... 
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Every little white lie, you told
Every single promise that you broke
Everything I ever did for you was nothing but a heartless joke. 

We not only shared bonds, but we shared blood
You betrayed me, and that's what makes our blood run cold
You lied to my face, and told me you cared. When the truth was that you didn't give a damn. I hope those lies will swallow you up one day. I hope you remember all the bullshit that you put me through. I hope you remember what it was like having a family. Having a sister. Because you're not my blood anymore.

All the times I put my trust in you. Believed in you. You betrayed your word. You fucked this up, not me. You did. You went off and spread your lies and cried wolf on me and the people who loved and cared about you. You went off with an asshole who only wanted you for money and your damn ass. Walked out of the house and left me again. Not once, but twice. Two times too many. But worst of all you had a child. Damn one year old baby boy that should have meant the world to you, and you went off and left him. You said that you loved him, but that was a lie. You couldn't face your own child when he hugged you, wouldn't even tell him goodbye. I want to ask you, how the fuck do you call yourself a mother? How the hell can you stand on your own two feet knowing that you abandoned your child? You said that you wasn't going to follow in our mother's footsteps. But look what you did. You did exactly that. You're selfish. How could you be called a mother if you don't care about your baby? That's one sorry ass mama. Believe me when I say that because you knew how our mother was. She had left us too. How could you be willing to take the same steps she took? You never took into consideration about your child. When he was sick, where were you? When he was refusing to eat, and crying in his sleep in the middle of the night. Where were you? You weren't fucking there! You weren't fucking there when he needed you the most!
Everything we ever had... Everything we ever was... 
Our sisterhood... Is dead... 
Our trust... Is dead...