Category : Poems

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Every night I have to hold myself tight

When I dream it's my fears I fight

Sometimes I don't know what to do

I've been falling apart putting the pieces back together with glue

I have to turn off my emotions at times

So I don't get overwhelmed from the pain of my crimes

I try my best to be a good person in life

Yet every time I get happy all I see is strife

I've lost all whom I love in this last relapse

My daughters, close friends, I hope to get back perhaps

I don't expect to be met with forgiveness

Good or bad I'm no longer giving myself less

I'm stronger and in control today

Reminding myself that everything's going to be okay

I have survived all that has come my way

I shine brighter than the sun's rays

I'll be your sunshine when it's dark and gray

I promise that light will always stay,

and never, 

my dear,

will I go away.