My Childhood Truth Read Count : 32
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I have been lovedsince I was bornwhen I was a child,who interested in peoplemy relationship with peoplewasn’t that great,my communicationwasn’t that goodnobody didn't knowhow to communicate with me,I went to a few sleepoversa few timedidn’t know how totake care of myselfnobody won’t let me inone of my female parenttook me to find friendsto play with,she does everything for meto find my true happinessthis is my childhood truthshe felt bad for medidn’t have time to play with me,I used to be an only childbefore my younger brother was bornI used to be lonelywanted her to play with me,she took me everywhere to find friendswhen I was in elementary schoolmy positivity and happiness of joyfriends and classmates lovedto be around me,I always loved to smilebright people’s day,used to be attractivesince I was a childattracted by peopleincluded my female parent’s best friendsboth of my parents took me to many placesand traveled around the worldwanted me to understand what is the world like,as I just can’t know whatthe world is likeas I went to this public schoolin KirklandI can't keep up with other peoplesI was there for one yearboth of my parents and Imoved to the island,where I’m living nowit was connected to the I-19 bridgeenrolled in high schoolI started as a freshman and Sophomore yearI was still a teenagerI still have my positivityI used to be flexiblecan adapt my life as a teenagerI used my strengthmade me becomenot depend on authorityI’m good at knowingwhat was my job dutiesis,without anyone helping meI’m good at maintaining and controlling myselfvery well,listen to my teacher and follow the ruledo what my teacher what me to doall of my teachers amazedby how good I was behaving,last final yearwasn’t going very wellI was feeling unwellI had an anxious thoughtcan’t sleep very well at nightI felt tired and weakunable to communicatewhat I was feelingI had a racing heartI felt a loss of controlwasn’t aware of everything around medidn’t know I was mentally trappedwhen I went homeI was excessive cryingwhen I went into my roomdidn’t tell her what is happeningto me,I wasn't in the state of mindto tell her the truthwhat is going on with me,I keep it to myselfwhen I finally graduated fromhigh schoolthought I was free, but I’m notwasn’t aware I gotsocially bullied,waited until I was 21I enrolled in collegein the year 2017–2018I had four classes,at the beginning ofmy college yearsI had drama, English writing,Spanish, Chinesewent to another college schoolto take a Chinese classin factorialI had an anxious thoughtcan’t sleep very wellwhen I got overwhelmedI can’t stop my excessive cryingin front of all the people I metwhen I was in my first relationshipcan’t control what I behavedcan’t control what I saidincluding the friends he hadpressured me to move onwith my lifeI was at my lowest pointhe broke up with mehad moved awaynobody knew I wentthrough same as he didfeel the same way as he didI know what it feels like for him,I know what he needsI know what he wantsI just can’t do what he wants me to dobecause I have the same mental healthas himdidn't know what to do right now.
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