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My father screamed 
into my mother's face
 how much he hated her.
I cried tears
and my nose was pouring blood.
It dripped into the sink of the bathroom.
I was locked up in the walls
 of abuse and madness.
This apartment,
a smaller reflection
 of the outside world that I hide from.
It shook my inside
and the 5 year old girl in me
was finally dead
 that day at 6 am in april 2019 
She was in my blood
 and escaped through my nose. 
Now she's somewhere in the sea. 
After that, 
the teenager i am,
was more and more dying too. 
My innocent past self, 
my baby, was taken away from me, 
forever. And i couldn't even comfort it. 
I hadn't a chance to say goodbye.
I could have killed myself that day,
I saw how the childish part of me fully died....
but somehow
i'm still alive on planet earth.
That event showed me another connection
I have with the Man in black and white,
And his name is 'Coma black'