Suicide As A Replacement Read Count : 16
Category : Songs
Sub Category : Rock
Death notes are dramatic love letters, sad truth tellers and selfish goodbyes.
I've killed myself before, staring death into the eye with a confused look 'cause it seemed like i was dreaming.
But when you believe in a after life,
it 's coming like a kid running to you for a warm hug.
I'm still not satisfied,
am i asking for too much?
Dear universe, please don't throw me into black, sucking holes
better send me Suns that dance with me the same steps.
I don't wanna be alone in my smartness
Don't wanna suffocate in my overthinking
I've been hanging out with my beliefs a little too much
Recently i really wanna put the little genius that's me into a nice slumber.
Wanna live life a bit as someone who's stupid enough to grab happiness like it's some hooker on a dirty street.
I hate slowly growing old on that bus stop that doesn't lead me to happiness but to a big, overthinking mind.
Before i had something to deeply believe in i never saw my own reflection in the Mirror glas, only a web of cracks.
I was a motherfucking strong rock but now i'm all the stones and the sea they're in together.
Now i could tear a mountain down.
I'm craving suicide, i'm so drawn to suicide, you could say suicide is my role model or my crush.
I want suicide!
A suicide of regression!
A suicide of all the Pressures i put on my mind like blood sucking leeches!
I want a fireball blasting through my sadism and the Impossiblity of being happy too!
'cause the sadist that i am makes me sad: i'm transforming love into a bird slowly losing all it's beautiful feathers.
Argh I just wanna be the fulfillment of my plans!