Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

So i have decided to distance myself, its not because i don't care, but its because i care to much. you are out there while I'm stuck in here, i am forced to do things i don't want to so i see your face when i close my eyes, i feel your touch on my skin, i feel you breathe on the back of my neck........ but it isn't you is it? its some one entirely different, in every way possible. 
when I'm with you you take my worries away your like a drug but when the effects wear of, my problems are still there, forgive me for allowing myself and you to fall into a pit that can lead to nowhere.
My dreams of you are some what confusing 
My thoughts of you are never ending 
at time's i smile and at times i cry 
i want you in a way that makes me sad because over thinking is what i do best, so yes I'm cheating doing something i said I'd never do something i despised about other people, thinking why don't they just leave, but you see it was never that simple for all the things I've been through with my significant other it shouldn't be an excuse to do what i am doing now,  i never wanted to hurt anyone, now he sees I'm distant and he's making the effects that i begged for why does it take all of this for a man to see what he has he's making all this effort of which i don't need anymore the question is why and the answer is you.