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Thoughts to play stories like movies inside my head. Eyes open yet still I can't help but watch looking in as I see whats going on outside of my mind.
Hard to catch my breath am I close to death? Feel so faint can hardly stay upright becoming shaky with weakness is this suppose to happen when watching ur thoughts?
To slow to slow down, to fast to go faster
Left turn ends in confusion should I have headed right.
Lost inside unsure of how I need to feel the situation doesn't pause so I get stuck in the what is forever falling further behind.
Ticking clock that you know won't ever stop even for a minute that feeling of love pushing me closer to the ledge that Beggs me to just jump off into unknown bleakness that hides whatever keeps below.
Days passing much to quick, backwards the steps I thought moved ahead change my mental state without my knowledge.
Lift up heads to low to care about whats to show eyes not allowed to decieve words spoken breaking down isolation alone I grow cold fearful to carry along the burdens of others I tried to save gifted as I am I find focus at just a glimpse facing demons that are not mine.
Why can I not stay on o e subject instead float in and out of consciousness forever left behind looking used and beaten with hope slipping away leaving dust to show it run away.
Who cares to make grace let be feel peace or happiness they claim to be after some how passing it right over their heads sad as it seems they just move along as if unseen how easy it could be to let in. That is all for now cause it has all changed a piece from 10 pages with added extras hope u enjoy or see beyond the insane lines that scattered seem to find sight.