Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

Currently, as of now I have made 34 years in this planet of agony and strife. Sad sad girl since birth. A fighter. A fighter to survive, a fighter to never let go. As a teenager; I wrote to release the pain. Writting was my secret escape. Most my age didnt know or care about that secret sacred place. I thought I would always be able to open that door when it was needed. I assumed it was easily acessable when I needed to run and hide.
 Once I had my 2nd daughter I didnt really give up writting, but, writting became out of my grasp. Poetic emotions have always sort of floated around in my head; and never making it on to paper. 
Now that physically Im older, but so broken and tired inside secretly. I stumbled upon that old familiar doorway that I once used to escape the pain of my world, my sad perceptions.
I crack open the door and take a peek in, with excitement,yet much fear. I see that this long lost place has been populated much more. Theres a feeling of comfort but achiness lingres heavily,I never forgotten. Standing in the entrance all im seeing are so many more lost souls out here wispering unspoken words. Amazed as I am watching the busyness of diffrent shadows, in-and-out, touching base on our poetic demension.
 In silence, my heart aches simotaniously, with the lost souls just like mine. "Welcome back!" I say, with a sigh of relief.
Its been so long that I have been trapped on planet writters block for 15 or more years; and then suddenly I woke up on a ship; set to un-trap the lost soul of this little girl inside. She has so many scars to heal. Forgotten about very young, unlucky in life and later was robbed of her youth, and became a mother too fast." Sola Survior"... Shes been traveling the road of uncertanty, head to the unknown. Asking.... Did she make it? She had to be here. I knew she would always come back.Did she grow? Did she learn? Does she hate me? Do we know eachother anymore?
Here, I know she sees me back, im sorry its been such a long time. I didnt forget you like everyone. Just come and get me, Im waiting. Here, Here we will meet again soon, Im ready now.