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I have seen the lighten go flashing across my eyes each day and honestly not knowing the hour of my depart which I ponder on a lot it was so overwhelming to me but in those time I was still in sin but the lord is able to solve anything been born with a Heart condition was not easy for me and the battle in my life seems to be everyday but it was at that hour I could not take it no more cause the sickness and others got me really down Death was calling out my name suicidal thoughts fill my brain I was just shut out from the world completely then in the night I was crying and praying and the lord come and free me show me that life is better with him all I had to do is to walk with him it ain't easy up to know but I still holding all cause in those hours of hopelessness the lord gave me hope and I boldly speak of his marvelous work in me. I had to did surgery when I was 7 years old to repair a valve but not knowing Christ as my personal savior but believe he was there hold on in the long haul hospital was not my place and I have been there constantly but God is able always I am 15 now and the lord is still with me I have taken the step at 8 to be baptize in his Holy name the Devil know that this is the end with him in my life so he damage the body as best as he can because it pains to know he can not destroy the spirit and heart of a warrior of Jesus The Christ cause there is the Evidence of a life of purpose to the king no one is not perfect but to make it in you got to be in the sight of the lord and each day I examine my self and look how I have fail God what he have brought me from and so forth but I have learned that I still have to move onward can't back down cause the one desire for me that is important of all is to reign with him on high its not a easy road but purpose is within me so I will complete the mission i believe cause the lord have fought and is still fighting battles for me and I never hesitate to claim the victory again and again a prayer warrior I am and when I see what is happening in this world I just remind myself that the end is near be prepare I say to stand before thee the lord hears and answer prayer but I never make a request and know I going back to the pit after he took me out at times I get weary but I never look back in my darkness hours I still pushing on cause heaven is in view for me travel with depression not letting it defeat me cause joy is around the mountain for me Deliverance is for me so I humble myself in the lord pray without ceasing and change my wicked was and pray to be more like thee.🙏