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         How do i start to tell you that you have hurt me so many times, and i just can't live with it anymore, how do i start to tell you that my life seems like it would be better without you.
The pain you've caused me is waying on me and the love i have for you isn't enough to sway the pain away, my eyes over flow everytime i think of what could have been or what should have been. the questions i ask myself is questions i myself can not answer. 
Everyone makes mistakes they say and i for one should know how it is, but they also say everything happens for a reason, life is to short to live life like you are scared of everything, you have to take chances, risks
the love i have for you isn't enough to over come the hurt, pain and neglect you've caused me my biggest mistake i would say is loving you.
You say sleeping with her was a mistake giving her all your attention in other words all my attention was a mistake, but i don't see it that way, you gave her my attention because you thought she deserved it
 I choose not to share a man nor did i ever want to, but i wasn't given a choice in the matter i was blinded...... by what? i am unsure. Now i see you have never really loved me or even if you did its the worst impression of love i have ever had the pleasure of knowing 
she claims to love you and who am i to deny you that. live your life to that of which you forget about me because i choose to be forgotten by you i deserve more than what i allow myself just because i am afraid i hold back and rethink, over think you gave her all i ever wanted and now i no longer wish to want anything to do with you keep your attention keep your love keep your unwanted emotions better yet she can have it all. I'm not fighting to help you find your self anymore. my attention will be focused on me I'll take care of my self, i will love myself, i will be all that i deserve.

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  • Mar 11, 2021

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