Category : Poems

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So many thoughts running through my head
Sometimes I wish I was dead
My man makes me feel alright
Even when I lie and say I'm fine
I dont know what's wrong with me
People ask but i ignore the plee
I just wish they wouldnt care if I leave
I just want to die
I'm not gonna lie
Everyday thoughts of suicide cross my mind
I fake a smile as I hide the tears 
Even though all these years
I feel like I'm nothing
To anyone
Can anyone hear me?
Can you hear the scream
 coming from my brain?
Can you see the sadness in my eyes
As I tell everyone I'm fine.
I'm fine.
You believe what I say 
And go on with your day
As I sit alone, thinking 
about the razor blades
I wish I was happy
I wish I felt life is worth it
But I feel worthless.
Can you see my pain though my smile
Can you see me suffering when I'm in denial
No.
I'm fine.
Life is alright
Though I still sometimes wonder
Who could care if I took my life.
You see my life wasn't goin good till I found u
You make me smile when I'm around you
You make me forget about my pain.
You.
But what about me?
Why can't I love, me?
Why can't I smile on my own?
Why can I still feel all this pain?
I'm sorry I cut
I just feel like I'm stuck in a rut
I don't know how to explain it to anyone
So I stay silent.
I know that's not the best way to cope
But it's better than taking my life
Right?
Please, I need help
I can't do it by myself!
But still silence
No one hears my cries as I say I want to die
They pretend to listen but they don't listen
Truly.
Listen to the words I'm saying
I feel like I'm fading
Into nothing.
My homie tried to kill herself
So I slit my wrist
People say it's for attention
But really it's for my sis.