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What if I tried to tell you farewell  
What if I tried to tell you Adios  
What if I tried to tell you good-day 
What if I tried? 
Would you accept my goodbye?


 Would you agree we dissolve the past 
Would you let your grudges go  
I never meant to give you scars 
The night we played with those junkyard cars  
I really did try to control those fires  


 What if I tried harder?  
What if I fixed those wires  
What if I’d tried to find more water 
 Maybe then you wouldn’t have died  
I could’ve tried harder  

 Maybe you wouldn’t be haunting my daughter  
Maybe you wouldn’t be tormenting my dog
Maybe you wouldn’t be causing chaos at home  
Maybe things would be different 
 And I wouldn’t feel bad each time I wake

 If I hadn’t told you to come out with me 
 If I hadn’t decided we leave our phones 
If I’d brought water 
 Or chose somewhere else we go 
Maybe things would’ve been different

 

I wouldn’t have caused a death at 16 
Hearing almost nothing as an off duty doctor announces your death  
Watched as an ambulance drove you away 
As I ran back home crying  

 I wouldn’t have  
Attended a funeral with 
grieving parents  
Crying sisters  
And angry uncles  

 You wouldn’t have had to watch as your parents spoke at your funeral  
As your siblings cleared out your bedroom because your parents just couldn’t 
 Oh, I just can’t even begin to fathom how things could be different  
 What if I’d tried?  

Would you still be creating strange noises throughout my house  
Knocking things off my walls 
 Creating drafts of wind and loud sounds 
And making me regret ever going forward 

 Owen  
What if I tried to tell you 
I’M SORRY 
Would you accept my apology? 
No? 
Well, it was definitely worth a try