Category : Poems

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These days have taken all of me.
I struggle and I struggle ending up back at the starting point.
I've tried kindling sparks with those I've fallen for thus losing more.
I've never felt good enough.
So many times I caved to peer pressure because I was sick of being told I was lame.
I started to play a game, but really the game played me, turning into days behind locked steel doors at night.
I lost myself loving those who never loved me the way I did them.
I ended up at the point where peer pressure wasn't needed anymore.
Ended up back behind those doors a few times more.
All in all, I'd say I lost my will to attempt my dreams in life. 
It's been a journey quitting all the heavy, but I finally achieved it. 
I still struggle with feeling like I'm never going to be good enough.
Gave up on several chances because my pride in the feelings I had for the person I was interested in were stronger. 
I've asked people for help, and now I honestly feel like they all think I'm a nuisance.
I stopped talking to people like I used to and stopped visiting too.
Not one of them checked up on me, but I did them when I felt like I could.
Its not that easy to reach out these days. 
I can finally say, it's getting easier, but it's still a struggle through every day.