Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

I do not really know how to feel
It is sad
It is frightening
Trying to breath yet again
That is how it feels like?

Are you really a friend?
A co-conspirator?
A challenge?
I do not know

What do I love?
I used to love to write
Put endless words onto pages
Writing stories and the like
Where has that passion gone?

What are wonders
What are dreams
What is a future with only darkness present?

What truly do I feel if I feel nothing at all?
Deaths are reduced to stats
Why am I crying out for help?
When many others are in more pain?

Am I in pain?
Distress?
I don’t know what to feel
But I wonder if feeling nothing is truly feeling

Cathartic, destressing, relief, relaxing,
Words I heard much
Get a hobby
Get a dream
Get a job

Well I’m trying, don’t you see?
Trying to find a future in this
In this “normalcy”