Category : Diary/Journal

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I have no idea were this is going to go but I still can't stop thanking of you. I wish I cold say everything what is going on in sied my brain, but right now it's saying nothing. My heart hurting and crying. Wanting help, whating someone to hold. I'm always acting happy wen I cold actually be crying. I hold everything in sied to the point I don't know what's going on, I don't even feel like myself anemore when I'm alone. Hiding myself from my true feelings. I'm scared of the one thing I want in life and that is love. Im scared to face people. I'm scared of what they are going to say or thank. My heart pounding but it doesn't feel like it's beating. What am I feeling? Scared, alone, no one to hold, no one to go to with my mistakes and problems. People lie all the time so why trust thim? How can you trust thim? I'm still scary and wanting to cry but I have cried so much I have no tears to show. A hole in my heart waiting for someone to so it, no not heal it because it feels like it never will.  I don't know what you are going to get out of this but I hope it helps you. Atlest your not feeling what I am, or at least I hope your not. I'm never really happy always just faking it... Always. Can't remember the last time I was actually really truly happy... Someone please help me.😔💔