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If I died tomorrow, 
Would you even really care
Would you tell me that you loved me
Would it even be a scare 
See if I died tomorrow,  
Could you look me in the eyes
And place yourself in my skin. 
Your pride would be your greatest sacrifice.

Now I'm going to start by saying, 
That if I died tomorrow 
It would mean a thing. 
I remember I tried to committ suicide 
Back in January 2013 
I was sixteen years old.  
Most thought it must of been for attention. 
Or maybe to much alcohol. 
The alcohol did play a part,
I'm not going to lie
It showed my true feelings 
That I hid deep inside. 
I did a lot of things I'm not proud of 
But you need to understand why. 
I couldnt accept the life I was given 
Because I didnt understand it myself, you see 
I felt more lost then alice,  I wished it was all a dream
All I wanted was to feel loved and wanted 
And be apart of a family where I could just be me 
There's a lot of reasons that led me to that point in life.  
My sacrifice.

If I died tomorrow, 
Would you even really care
Would you tell me that you loved me
Would it even be a scare 
See if I died tomorrow,  
Could you look me in the eyes
And place yourself in my skin. 
Your pride would be your greatest sacrifice.

It took a lot of time for me to over come this. 
So many people have had faith family
With so many lost theirs. 
I branched out and asked questions. 
I did research,  and found out who I'm destined to be.
I've grown in so many ways since then. 
However when people ask,  
Like where is your family
I tell them we're not close,  I think it's because of my past.  
Every time I see them, 
I get judged in some sort of way. 
I cant remember the last i love you i recieved. 
Its like they dont think i pay attention to the words they do or dont say. 
Even the smallest fall will be heard. 
But the greatest jumps will never be told.
The love they show others is different said the wise little bird.  
And before they knew it,  she let it all unfold. 
They would be happier without me,  
the words we're spoken. 
And thats when I focused on my own family
That I created.  

If I died tomorrow,
It wouldnt be because of me. 
Nothing could tame the fire of my soul 
For now I am free 
I would fight until my last breath.  
You will one day see.  
I'll live longer then tomorrow. 
As I have my baby and one on the way
Together we will live a happy life.  
My greatest sacrifice