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 I absolutely struggle at times, I have had more then my fair share of hurt. Not saying mine Is worse. Everyone's pain can feel the same because of the lifestyle and his/ her  upbringing that may have been influenced.. yes I come off as crazy. Yes I do have issues. I will never be afraid to admit that. I am not ashamed of others perceptions. People judge to quickly, they make judgments based on views they have within themselves. In a world where there is sadness, darkness, and hurt where most people try to escape from.
 That's where  I am always drawn. The brokeness. I admire corruption. I find the most beauty in the most ugly depths people don't want to understand or don't  want to recognize. everyone says only in failure is strength. This quote is in just an opinion to myself that varys. people avoid pain. for those just struggling with simple issues like a relative passing away, or having a simple fall apart in your family. yes these do matter and they do hurt. But real pain.  that's where I get
 confused.  Pain to the point u loose yourself completely. where u reach a bottom where ur
 completely suffocated. living with a mind where you can't even trust your own thoughts. Where u have burned a million Bridges and selfdestructed in ways people begin to abandon you because u had become unmanageable in their eyes. where brokeness is never solved in any one certain way. People allow themselves to give up when people are distanced themselves when maybe it was the helpers motives that may not have been giving  an  effective approach. People become closed minded. They loose touch and believe that things are healed behind degrees and books. That's where things that matter can become a weapon instead of an aid.   as long as people will eventually recognize that pain may not be a complete loss because things did not go according to the logic prescribed.  empathy is usually forgotten no  one can change pain with out understanding and love. By that I mean complete understanding  where u feel and  become as one with the hurt..  healing is not easy. U will fall, and be stuck for moments, u will feel empty, alone and become an outcast. There is pain and beauty at the same time. I like to connect where the 
Destruction resides. I like to feel even when I fall apart because even when I feel to much my feelings are pure genuine. recognizing it around and wanting to just be able to cure not just sooth. I admire authentic people. Watching "struggle" that most don't really take in to agknowledgment. I hate having to hide myself to be a part of a strict world. I am unique." CRAZY" that's the definition we use to push away what we can't grasp intelligently.  Peoples thought process amaze me, yet annoy me at times as well.  No I'm not the best. But I'll be my best in someone's worst. Purpose is everything. I know I have a purpose and I know I have my flaws and I will fall in my destructive ways so many times, But even in darkness I will always be me. I will always want to make a difference where most won't try to go.