Category : Diary/Journal

Sub Category : N/A

You were not quite ready for me.
You didn't have love for me back then, at least not the kind I needed. 

Everything you had.... all the love, all the time, back then, was for yourself. And it was not because you couldn't love or you didn't have love in your heart, you had plenty. It's just that it took you so damn long to fall in love with the idea of being alone that you couldn't support another because you didn't know how. You gave everything you had to someone else so whatever was left was going towards yourself. It may seem selfish because as humans we are supposed to spread love and love everyone. 

Well, fuck that shit! 

Your time was back then, in that moment. You were hungry and if I was not entirely with you on that, then in your eyes I was entirely against you.

I knew I was ready for you. I had a lot of love for you back then, the kind of love you needed. 

Everything I had.... all the love, all the time, at that moment was for you. And it was only because I had so much of love for you in my being. It took me so damn long to really and truly admit it to myself that I couldn't hold it back right then because I didn't know how. I gave everything I had to someone else only to discover that I still had a lot more to give and I was saving it all for you. It may seem selfish because as humans we are supposed to spread love and love everyone. 

Well, fuck that shit! 

My time was back then, in that moment. I was hungry and if you were not entirely with me on that, then in my eyes you were entirely against me.