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If I remove the expensive hair and make-up will you still deem me beautiful? 

If let go of the perfect dress and the killer heels will you still think me elegant and graceful? 

Without the pants that holds my extra flesh together do I still look sexy? 

See, there is a lot of this things that contribute to the perfection that society has taught me to present 

This unwritten standard of beauty I've been taught and bent to conform to 

But when this perishable beauty fades,  when the glam and beautiful dresses can no longer hide the imperfections of this very flawed body, will I be in your eyes still beautiful? 

Will you, without all that enhances my beauty still hold me in your arms in a proud embrace and call me yours? 

For, I've gone through all they said to do and found it exhaustive, 
Took I too the plunge and came out the other side acceptable and perfect 

But see, all it ever did was take away the very essence of me, teaching me to only love parts of myself that fits into the puzzle that was not even mine 

They found my quirks and my attributes unlady like, 
My different rough edges to be smoothed

But I've been reborn, baptised in new waters, I have a new name

So I stand here learning a new song, reteaching myself of my own beauty and worth 

Learning to love even that which they said to hide

So when all they taught me is gone, when I come of age in my new garment,  will I still in your eyes look beautiful?