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Sub Category : Spirituality

   There is hope, for that faith guides our hearts and the end is only a doorway into new beginnings. Each step we take, each moment in our life we ask questions. We look deep inside and if we fail to grasp an understanding we reach to someone else for guidance. Right or wrong, good or evil, we make choices everyday which not only affect us. We seek an understanding of these moments and strange interactions that influence our train of thought. It gives me joy, sorrow, anger, but why do we feel these things. I do not ask how things exist, but why did these things happen?
   Most of my readers remember me telling the story of a small five year old child who stopped in ancient of an isle at Wal-Mart and suddenly exclaimed he saw God. The man next to me laughing hysterically, maybe he believed my appearance and odd demeanor deceived the boy or maybe that man was something else. I could swear the boy was looking at me. As a child I saw things I was never able to explain. Unnatural phenomenon seem to follow me as if I'm some lightning rod. I certainly have seen many things I have yet to explain.
   I know I'm human, but can I also be something else? Instead of making a mistake assuming there's a possibility I am God, or something "beyond human" I will ask can a person be more than what they believe? I often think about all of the good-hearted who do good deeds, just for doing them without the expectations of wealth or fame. I recall a moment on video when a vehicle skidded off the road in town and a woman threw herself in front of a child to cushion the blow so he would survive. She died in that single moment, but she gave herself up to protect a life.  Good deeds and sacrifices occur everyday that we may not understand or realize.
  This may come to you as strange, because you may not ever consider putting your own life at risk for someone else. You may not even grasp the understanding why someone may put themselves at risk. The few times I had the opportunity to act, to save children I was not in the vote to end up dying. I had enough time to spare not only their lives but my own. I've never been at that moment, when it was my life for someone else's. I often wonder what I might choose to accomplish through these moments. I certainly don't believe my life is more valuable than anyone else's, but I also understand that my existence means more then what I think it does. There is a reason we exist, and I know that what may seem like a cloudy mystery may be unveiled.
   These questions we ask ourselves daily, or not that strange. Our existence, means something but sometimes we become too perplexed and our own lives to look at what we've done. How have we affected people around us? Have we spent most of our lives helping other people find their spirit, cheating other people for our own ends, or just trying to live and make a life for ourselves? I know I'm far a person who is from perfect, but I also realize I'm something more than this person. Part of the bigger plan, which tells me that there is something far more amazing. I don't know what will happen in the future, or what my fate holds for me but I will exist until I understand the reason why.