Category : Books-Non-Fiction

Sub Category : Biography

I was born December kimbella James September 18,1983 on a humid day at medline medical center in San Antonio Texas to a single 22yr old woman growing up I didn't have much my mother was a drug addict with no intentions of letting it go. I didnt have a father so my mama was all i knew besides my grandma Love? It was something I thought I'd never feel or experience. Nobody ever loved me & I didn't love anybody in return so it was something I never really gotten into until 1998 at the age of 14... let me tell you how it all began. Summer time In San Antonio  Texas is hot as hell,girls in their thot shorts trying to holla at any nigga that'll give them the time of day. Asses big titties sitting right stomachs flatter than pancakes. Niggas  pulling out their slabs shirts off body ripped like a mutha fucka banging the latest hot boys pimp c no limit & 5thward boys. See Where I'm from everybody hung out all day & night partying selling drugs gambling & just chilling in the summer heat. Even though I was 14 in the 7th grade my body was more like an adult big titties ass & a little shape everybody thought I was 18 or 19 because of the way I carried myself & my shape.Deer park projects on the eastside is where everybody hung out at you could find any & everything out there from crack to weed fights niggas hoes fun all types of shit. I had this one best friend that I did everything with her name was Mercedes she was 12 yrs old already having sex smoking & doing shit I wasn't doing just yet. I was still a virgin and wasn't thinking about loosing it anytime soon. I met Mercedes for the 1st time at Brian jay high school we had 3 classes together & she knew everybody she always had the latest gear on Jordan's filas roca wear  baby phat you name it she had it.  Come to find out she was good at stealing & was messing with older men to get what she wanted.  After 2 to 3 months we got so close you couldn't tell us a part  when you seen her you seen me we became the best of friends & did everything together I even started  stealing smoking weed skipping school hanging out late & being rebellious. At this time Mercedes was messing with a 19yr old drug dealer by the name of  kevin who had all the money cars & hoes & would come pick us up to hang out with him & his boys.  Me & Kyle became real close & he became a big brother I never had. Kevin had an older brother named Jayshawn who was in jail but was on his way home real soon. Kevin was cute but not my type & plus I had already built a brother sister relationship with him & an instant bond that couldn't be broken. "When my brother gets out I'm gone hook y'all up" he used to tell me. "His brother is cute girl they look just a like" Mercedes said.  "How old is he"? "20 Kevin said while putting a blunt to his lips & laughing "what you laughing for is he ugly or something "? "Shiiiit I don't know, he be having a lot of hoes but I don't be looking at him like that,shit that's my brother ". I could tell Kevin was lying this dude must be ugly I was thinking to myself.  "Y'all want to go to the movies? That new Jerry Springer movie just came out & it looks funny as hell. We all go in that bitch high laughing like a mutha fucka so what's up y'all want to go?" "Yea I'm going" I said walking to Kevin's car & getting in. We rode to the weed house got some weed,rolled up & was smoking the whole ride to the movies I had never been that high before so the movie was funny as hell to me even if it wasn't & I was laughing my ass off. After the movies Kevin dropped us off at Mercedes house & we got high even more due to her sister smoking her weed with us. After a while I stopped skipping school & just dropped out I was barely there anyways so why not dropout?  "I heard Jayshawn was out" Mercedes told me one day while walking to the mall "who is Jayshawn? Ohhhhhhhhh Kevin's brother!" I said with  excitement "Yea him & bitch he be having a lot of money you better fuck with him & stop being scary I used to mess with him too " she said giggling "wait...you was fucking with him too?" "Yea I lost my virginity to him I was fucking him 1st" "so bitch you was fucked the brother & now you want me to talk to him?" "Why not? I dnt like him like that not like I like his brother,I think im in love with Kevin & bitch he got a big dick & knows how to fuck" "who Jayshawn?" I asked looking confused & shit "nooooo bitch Kevin, he be fucking the shit out of me & his shit bout this big" she said while opening her arms wide as hell.  "Well bitch I'm a virgin & I'm not trying to have sex right now fuck that". "Bitch you scared? It hurts....but not that much & once it's in you good ". "Well I'm not trying to figure that shit out right now" I said while holding my pussy & just imagining a dick going in & out of me, nope I can wait.