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I love you form a distance, 
Yes this feelings is like no other 
I stay loyal to you from a distance 
loyalty I chose, even though you disbelief
But falling in love I didn't,
you don't understand 
Even me i do not understand it myself
You say no relationship, 
And yes you make it clear
but I hope,
Instead i have a relationship with you in my heart 
you told me the truth despite  my feelings for you
you didn't just tell me something I wanted to hear,  you push me away in respect 
But I found comfort in your truth in this I block my mind and ignore the signs.

I cried myself to sleep sometimes wishing you feel something for me, in this i try stay away but I find myself coming back.

I hated myself for a while because I love you too much without knowing why
I keep communicating 
The little time we add become memories and wishes
The phone is us for 4 an a half years it did it best
But you still give me red flag's 
Through this I learn to love myself even more an become stronger emotional
And also still having this burning unconditional love for you.

  Though it is painful my heart, my body, my soul aches for you
I didn't accept, but it become more painful and harder
Wanting and loving someone that doesn't want a relationship 
I tried to keep my feelings in tac 
I keep my distance even though distance is between us
I cut the phone calls, I cut the text,I dropped the love messages an less communication 
but still i try even harderd to stay around
So the communication continue
Mmmmmmm 
But I got that feelings that part of you want me to stay around
Now you heard my heart speak some will say
I deserve better 
That I am naive 
I don't love myself 
He doesn't love me
Stop trying to change him
You cannot make him love you
my self-esteem is low 
Despite all the above
in my heart you are the one
I have never felt no other feelings like this
if this is love
it is sweet 
It is bitter
it is cruel 
it is emotionless 
It is emotional
it is deep
It is clueless
It is foolish
It is love 
It is weak
It is strong
  it is care free 
Its free
it's  pure 
it also doesnt thing
Are we just Soulmates with a heart of pure gold but we both  have Burden with past ache an pain that keep us suffer and separate.