Category : Stories

Sub Category : Historical Fiction

Being trapped, being responsible, having needs, being jealous. What if it all just stoped. What if I didn’t have to do do this anymore. I could end it, I could go away and be in peace. No responsibilities, no needs, no jealousy, be free. Nothing on my mined, in a state of calmness away from everything, everyone. I met someone in an alley, they said for twenty dollars I could be free in peace. I gave them the money and got a small pill. I thought if this was all I had to do to be free then I would do it in three days at nine pm, go to sleep and it would be over. I would be free. I would end it sooner but I thought that I should get rid of the little things I have. I donated all my stuff and gave my apartment oner a two day notice. I’ve now quit my job, I don’t have any family and I haven’t talked with my friends in at least three years. I’ve now tow hours until nine pm. I thought I might as well go for one pats walk before I go. As I was walking I saw a small dog on a leash with someone running after it. I sit in front of the runway dog and catch the dog. I pick the dog up then stand up to give them there dog. As I stand up the pill falls out of my pocket with the dog still in my arms the dog owner picked up the pill stared at it then gave me a hug and said “don’t go”. I realized that I realized that I never really wanted to go, I wanted someone, anyone to stop me and say that I was loved and I didn’t have to be lonely anymore. But who would I have no family and I pushed all my friends away. I thought that if I pushed everyone away that I would be peaceful and not stressful but I was really just lonely. Really I been someone to care about me and to care for. The dog owner told me that they were going to take that same pill before there sidling made them realize that many people care about them.  they gave me a number to someone who I can talk to and help get my life on track. After that I realized that I don’t want to go.