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    Sometimes it takes legends to help someone reach their full potential. When I first came on to the app, I was unsure of myself and afraid of letting people see me for what I really am. Most of my life, I have been really killed for being "weird" by those closest to me. They had no idea what secrets and memories dwell inside me. Hiding in the depths of my mind. I won't explain why, but I was watching the famous musician work with a group of kids on a video from about a year ago. By watching the children on this video, I realized it takes special people to help other people reach a higher potential. As some of you know, I've devoted my time to helping people from the app as well as receiving some help myself.
   I was a story-teller long before I ever wrote a single word or even a letter on the site. Back then, I was more fear less than I ever thought it would be, but when I was ridiculed I curled up in my shell and gave up. But when I did this, I made a horrible mistake. I gave up a part of myself, a part of my true being which I never understood from the very beginning of my life. I believe, and this lifetime I was an anomaly. Not necessarily a mistake in this universe, but one searching constantly for his true potential. It was when I met writers like Z  Zulu on here, I realized that I was not the only person that struggled in a similar way. It took me a great deal of time, and help from people who encouraged me every step of the way for the last two-and-a-half years. As you know, I am deleting some of my older writings while moving them over to another site.
   I don't intend to leave, but in a sense I am piecing together a puzzle which may hold the reason I struggle so often with each project. Before I worked on a project with and for Jared I seriously questioned whether or not I would ever complete anything. I struggled for more than a year, but after I completed it I realized that I completed something I never tried before. A full script for a musical. This made me realize I can accomplish anything if I set my mind to it. Piece by piece I am putting together old poems to build my first poetry collection, most which seem successful enough to sell.
    Now that project is over and there may be a chance to complete old work. There is no guarantee that script will sell, but I'm hopeful it will sell or at least be noticed enough to free me from the prison of my own mentality. Piece by piece, I am forging a new blade which is much sturdier and more effective then I originally forged earlier when I start it. I finally have my spirit back, something I never thought I would feel again. I certainly haven't been here as often as I would like to, but hopefully that will change soon. As soon as I complete pieces of my work, I will share some of my rebuilt works.
   All it took was a musician, a writer, and a CEO of his own app to show me all of this is possible. I know my dreams are big, and it frightens me to think that everyday I spend not focusing it on it makes it that much harder to reach. I shouldn't blame anyone else though, I only have myself to blame for each day I don't put towards my work. For each hour, though working hour by hour is nearly impossible. After all, if you know me well enough I get my inspiration from other people as well as events which occur. Whether be from my life for somebody else's lifetime. I believe in my strength, and my determination will see me through to the end. No matter how long it takes, I can accomplish this and one day will reach my goals. Being a writer to me isn't about fame or wealth, but it is about reaching out to as many lives as I possibly can and changing the world in a new image. I have seen the best and worst this world has to offer, and I still have hope we can make it better for everyone.

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