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So there is a girl full of excitement known as Red yeah I know what your thinking what like Angry bird. "Guess again?".
She no ordinary girl that goes by crying on anyone shoulder,she covers up her pain so no one can see it goes with the brightest smile of them all. In her mind there is a room she would visit where all her imagination fades and colours wash away.
Every day she wakes up hoping it would be okay that she wouldn't have to visit that place, she always says stars were made to be watched but some girls aren't.
Said to herself your not worth the love you crave,but the crown you shall receive.
Training herself to become a Queen.

Let  me tell you how she became this person she is today. Red grew up thinking she wasn't pretty enough or she will never have the body of other girls on the magazine,while growing up she  was never notice always in the shadow of her sister who was younger and apparently was born to be a star or something.Well she was alot shy and soft spoken no one ever heard her so she decided to become a tomboy cause she figured a boy would never love her because of her looks or the way she carried herself. She started wearing black because she thinks her heart was that colour. At school she was known as the "Witch" that what she said.She started feeding her demons because she thought their was her only friend,She cut all her pain away and remain with scars on her skin tried killing herself a couple times but that won't fix the problems she cried to herself each night that went on by .
She started writing poems so her pain could go into words but no one would never read cause if they do all they would do in compare there story to hers.
Lied to herself again.
Pretty hurts but my inside hurts more,no one never understood what she meant by that cause they always say your too pretty to be crying and pretty much all she wanted to was die.
She wrote a suicide letter saying she just wish someone would understand her pain.
No one ever understood it because she wore the most amazing smile , full of laughter to make it seems like everything alright,In her mind she don't know why she was  depress but one thing she know for sure she would always blame herself for being such a great actress sometimes.
Well she found love but she fell in love with the wrong hands,tried again and fell in love with the right guy at the  wrong time.Then she realized she has to love herself before anyone else. Red continued being amazing to her friends and co workers always giving out the best advice , they will ways tell her she is amazing and how are you always happy.Her replied there is no reason for me to be depressed another lie again. She not a cutter anymore  but she start drinking her pain away seeking for attention but it was not worth it so she stop until she met a guy she just like her